Missed U I Think?

Chapter 12

Jacobs p.o.v.
I grabbed her by the shoulders and sat her down on her bed she looked at me with tears in her eyes and said what do you want Jacob I want to talk to you I said Jacob please just leave me alone I don't want to hear your lame excuse saying that you're sorry that you want to go back to being friends that you didn't mean to hit me I don't want to hear if you didn't mean to you want to have done it she said I started to lean in to kiss her she turned her head and got up from her bed and got away she said no Jacob did you not just hear what I just said I said I don't want to hear it I don't want you to try to kiss me I'm not just some toy to you you kissed Loren so we can't do that to her and you're not going to do that to me so please just leave she said very angry before I could say anything she grabbed me by my shirt and pushed me out of her bedroom door then she pushed me down the stairs and pushed me out the door she shut the door and left me there I had no idea what to do I was so confused. She is right i kissed loren i cant go off kissing her i would be a f*ck boy but that is exactly what i feel like i need to tell loren that we can only be friends.so i decided to txt her

L-loren J-jacob

j-hey loren can we talk

l-sure what is it

j-umm i think we should just be friends and not talk about the kiss

l-jacob we were never more than just friends i just used u to get joey back

i didnt respond i didnt know what to say I lost Sam Loren just used me and I have no one. Ugggh why is life so uggggh. I have to get Sam back even tho she kicked me out so I ran back to her house and I tried to open the door so I figured there must be a key so I started looking for one a finally found one under a rock I walee in ran straight to her room and she wasn't there I ran into her bathroom and saw

Sam pov
Ok so I figured I was a little harsh but he is to good for me we weren't even dating so ugggh I think I might like him but it can't be I just met the kid again. I decided that I just needed to leave I decided that Jacob was just going to have to see me not in this world in another. So I made a note for my parents and friends

Dear mom and dad,
Thank you guys for everything that you have done for me without out you guys I wouldn't be here but I believe its time for me to go so stay strong and keep being the greatest parents ever love you so much bye.

Jacob
I think i will miss you the most but I relised I was a little harsh but I just realized the way I acted wasn't forgivible even if you said it was I wouldn't be able to live knowing I acted like that so if your not going to be able to see me in this world you will see me in another someday continue to stay strong and never stop believing your self like I did and always keep smiling because it always made me feel good yours always sam❤

Mark
I barley knew you but yes I thought you were cute but I would never date you continue to make people smile because it always made me smile

Loren
As long as I new you you were very kind

Caroline
You were like The sister I never had I will miss you so much girly stay beautiful love you

Love you all but its time for me to say good bye so bye

After that I went in the bathroom got my razor took one of the blades out and made 10 cuts
1-for giving up in myself
2-for liking jacob
3-for being so harsh
4-for being so ugly
5-for not being enough
6-for thinking I had a chance
7-for thinking he liked me
8-for that night at jacobs
9-for being so stupid
10-for being me

I didn't think it would be enough so I also grabbed some pills and did a over dose then I heard someone coming upstairs before I could see who it was I said goodbye and everything went black.

Sorry it took so long for me to get another chapter for u but here u go I'll have anotyer chapter soon I'm working on it rn so byye thanks for taking the time to read this book
-sami