To Sidearms

The Story.

Okay so a few years ago I saw a name on youtube. The name was Sidearms4reason. Now when I saw this name I never thought it would mean so much to me. Sidearms is a youtuber who plays games with his friends. His friends mean a lot to me but not as much as he does. His friends are funny and talented like him, but to me they aren't as much of a inspiration to me. When I first watched him I thought he was cool so I subscribed to him. The videos he'd make with Deluxe and Speedy made me laugh so hard. When I was sad, I'd watch a Side video. My hide away was Side's videos. Side might not know he has fans like me who have been here for a while and have never though he was dumb (without joking) or anything like that. I'm loyal to Side and always will be. Now comes to today Feb, 5, 2017 , where I still watch and love Side. This love for Side has grown everyday. From a fan, to a fangirl, to a crush, to a loyal friend. Yeah I'm not Sides actual friend, and would I like to be? Heck yes! Side is the coolest guy I've ever seen make videos. Now I've been thinking all day, how can I show him how much I care and how much I'm here for him? Well writing this story I thought would help. I'll never date Side because I'm (almost) and he's at least 19 or 20. Now the dedication I have in this man, none of my friends would have. My friends have said to me, " Why do you like him so much when you don't know what he looks like what if he weights 3,000 pounds?" And when any of my friends say things like that I reply the same way, "Because he means so much to me, he makes me smile, laugh, and he helps me when you never can." Side has helped me more than anyone else in this Earth. I'm happy to say that. The thing is I know I'll never be his friend, I'll never talk to him or the crew, because I'm just a fangirl and I'm not fun to talk to so he'd never want to talk to me. Plus even if he followed me on Twitter (Jalbi4reasons) other people would do the same thing to get him to. I'd love to Skype him, (Audio of course since he hasn't showed his face.) but I know I won't ever, because Side is famous and has so many people that have probably said the same thing to him. I just... I want to talk to him. His voice, his laugh, he makes me so happy. Now I will admit, I still have a small crush on him but there's a long age difference. People have told me age is just a number but if Side was to date me, he could go to jail. Why would I do that to him? When he means so much to me. So the thing I'm saying is if I could talk to Side, I'd be the happiest person alive. But it most likely won't happen but I just want Side to see how much I care... Also Side if you want to DM me on Twitter or Tweet me saying you've read this, it'd mean a lot to. So I'll just keep wishing among shooting stars and on 11:11 that I can talk to him. Thank up for reading and goodbye. -Jay♡

( P.S. I'm not doing this to make him feel like he has to talk to me I just want him to know I love and care about him. )

( P.P.S. I know he probably won't care since I'm just a fan and I sound creepy but I do care. So once again good bye... )