This is my first time writing. Please bear with me. I'm sorry for the errors, I'll edit it soon. Thank you!
She's a girl who wished to have a life like happy girls do. She grew up without a father. Molested by many. She did not say a word. She doesn't have a voice to say or even the courage to do so. She wanted to run away from everything. Start a new life and be succesful someday. Well her life is not that bad at all, she grew up with a mother. Or did she? The downside is her so called mother doesn't treat her like a daughter or if her mother did, she can't even remember when or how. For once in her life she became truly happy and that is when she opened her life for God to enter; someone who would understand, forgive and love without limitations. She became even happier that she was able to study somewhere far from home or better yet hell? Her home feels like hell because of all the pain she experienced. She finally had an escape from all the bullshits life had given her.
All the time she spent alone, she wished that she could forget all the pain that the past created and all the scars that it left behind. She's a the kind of girl who hid all those memories because she believed that some things should be kept only for yourself. She's broken inside, not because of a lover or a friend but because of her family specifically her mother. Most girls look up to their mothers right? Wished they would become like them someday but her mother is far from that. She's a mom that you would never want to be. What kind of a mother is someone who would threaten her child's life?
What a life she's going through right? Gladly she's still holding on because she wants to prove to everyone that she can surpass all the crap that's happening in her life right now. The question is, is it really for everyone or for herself? She thanked God that He has given her the wisdom to not take her own life. She's happy that she became a bit stronger by all the lessons the past gave her but she wants to run away and disappear right now. She's contemplating about the things that she would do once she'll leave for good.
Most people see her as a girl whose having a happy life but deep inside, behind her mask; she's as fragile and vulnerable like a glass that when you let it fall to the ground it will be shattered into tiny little pieces. Don't you think that she deserves a better life than this? Is is right for her to wish that she'll have an amnesia to have a quick escape from all the memories from the past that remains painful to her and create new ones that will make her happy? Will she become happier and find her own serenity?
