Sometimes I ask myself why am I so left out. Every time my friends talk about their past or present relationship it feels like I’m not there at all. Truth be told I’ve never had a boyfriend before. I don’t know if I’m quite conservative or guys just don’t like me because I’m fat and ugly.
I’ve heard a lot from my friends’ relationship rants. And based on them, guys are all the same. Maybe I just don’t like guys but of course for every girl there is always an exception when it comes to guys. Sometimes, those guys are the ones who ignores you.
I don’t know why he’s so different---for me. He’s like the perfect guy anyone could ask for. But I don’t see him anymore. Is it even possible to miss someone who doesn’t even know I exist? He used to know me, I don’t know if he still remembers me right now.
Maybe the reason why I’m not yet experiencing all these boys stuff is because i’m not yet ready. God is saving my heart. If He really is, I still want him to be the one. I am still waiting for him even though it’s quite impossible. Maybe today is not the right time. Maybe it’s just the time, but it’s still us in the end. I don’t know. You don’t know. We don’t know. But I’m hoping.
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You were not my first crush but you were my first love. It’s a one-sided love. A love that only one person is involved -- Me. I’m only 17 and there are a lot of things I need to focus myself with but before anything else I realized that maybe love has stages. Our story has stages. I don’t know if it already started but I’m sure it’s not yet at the climax.
As what I have said, I don't see him ANYMORE. We seperated ways. It sounds like we've been something. But there were never really US. I just wanted to say that we seperated ways because it's the trurth. We're now in college. We're now studying in different school. He's studying in a prestigious university while i'm studying in a government-owned university.
So what's the point of this? I just want to tell you my story. I know it's a boring story but I just want to know that I'm not the only one experiencing this kind of story. I want you to help me figure out everything. I want to know why HE'S not yet coming to my life and why can't it be HIM. Does love really has to have a preparation stage? Why aren't others like this?
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