The hand I can't touch

Chapter 1

7;35AM

My brain starts to function to the annoying beeping sound coming from the un-known. If it doesn't stop i will fucking karate chop it in the face to make it shut up. 

'Ok Chloe its just your alarm going off telling you to get your mother fucking ass up for school, that building you have to attend everyday' My subconscious tells me.

I rub my eyes roughly, pull the quilt off of me feeling the goose bumps crawling up my legs and over my arms, making my hairs stand on its ends,causing me to shiver. I jump in the shower and wash my body but have no time to wash this stupid birds nest. I place it in a top knot just to hide the ugliness, not that im trying to impress anyone anyway. I throw on my ripped black jeans my black jumper and my black Dr. Marten boots. I didn't bother with make-up cause like i said i haven't got anyone to impress.

Quickly and quietly, i sneak down the stairs and grab and apple take my medication and leave as quick as possible as i don't want to awake the trolls from their 'beauty' sleep.

I put in my ear phones and Three Days Grace- numb comes on. i turn it up full blast and walk to hel- i mean school.

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8;30

I walk into tutor just in time and take a seat at the back of the class room so i'm not noticed by anybody. 

My teacher calls out my name and tells me to go and see the head teacher

i hear the whispers vibrate my ears and torment my soul

'ooo what did she do this time, fuck a teacher or two in the closet'

'I heard she gave a guy a blow job and gave him an STI'

firstly, im still a virgin and secondly how the fuck can you give and STI though oral like are you a fuck tard... oh wait they are.

i continued my walk towards the office. I walked up to the door as it loomed upon me. I tried to hide my anxiety but it was hard to as i get very nervous when the curiosity is too high. 

*Knock* *Knock*

'Come in'

i walked into the door and greeted the head teacher with a pleasant smile on my face

'Good morning Chloe, you're wondering why you are in here? Well you're in here because there is a new boy and i want you to show him around the school and take him to every class with you as you have the exact same time table. Meet Dalton.'

A guy stepped out and i had to hide my gasp, he had jet black hair, ocean deep blue eyes and a normal sized body. Dalton seemed enchanting and mysterious but then i remembered i couldnt get close before he knows about me.

'Hey cutie, before you create an ocean of your drawl, do you want to take me to the first class we have' He spoke in a rough voice

'Firstly, i am not cute so the next time you say that i will rip your balls with my fucking teeth, you douche bag and yes i will take you too our first lesson' I snapped back

i was taken a back by my come back as im usually quite timid but violent in my head. Dalton just laughed at me and followed me to science.

i walked up to miss Neil and explained who the new bait is. she sat me and him at the back of the classroom and was explaining all about the three discoverers and stupid shit. I zoned out and was doodling on my hand when Miss Neil shouted

'Chloe, are you paying any attention to my class, i've been calling your name for five minutes now and i had to slam my hands on the desk to get your god damn attention. You may as well be a bloody vegtable, you are useless. Nobody is going to love a day dreaming bitch like you, now pay attention you snotty girl'

I went red in the face and tried very hard to hold back the tears. I could hear the sniggers of the other class mates creeping into my ears and filling my head. Miss Neil is correct about what she said. I'm useless, nobody is going to love me.

~~End of school~~

I walk in through the front door and try and leg it up the stairs but my mother and father call me into the living room.

'Chloe my dear, be a babe and make us tea' My mother says as shes lounged on the sofa. I've had a rough upsetting day and i don't want to make it worse so i just go and make them scrambled eggs and chips. I slowly walk into the living room and hand them their plates. They take one bite and my mother throws the plate across the room making it smash against the wall and the shards of glass spray all over the carpet.

'What the hell is this pile of shit, I expect good quality food not this crappy food' She shouts in my face

'well why don't you go and make it yourself you fucking cow' I shout back 

She slaps me accross the face making me fall to the floor. The tears have not cascaded down my face yet, I need to be strong now. I can't keep being weak, thats not the way to go anymore.

I stand back and punch my mother in the face and run up stairs and lock the door. My Mum runs up the stairs banging on the door calling me every name under the sun and telling me i will not get away with this.

I decide to get an early night and leave the house early so i can have a cigarette before i go to school.