Alyssa and Colton. We were always known as one unit, always together, always about the other, and always thinking about our future. I loved him and I wasn't ashamed. I thought he was perfect everything I wanted and all that I could even dream for. We stayed a couple for over 2 years straight. We read together, ate together, took walks together, shared secrets, and I thought we shared love. But I thought wrong. Everything was perfect, perfect until he told me that day. He told me he had to leave, leave me all alone. Leave me forever.
When that day came he promised he would always love me even when he left. He texted me for three days after that always telling me he missed me and saying he loved me. But he lied.
While checking his facebook one day so we could talk, I saw things. Things about other girls. 6 of them, all tall, all blonde, and all with blue eyes, exactly like me. And he was dating them all. I asked him and he didn't even deny it like he was proud. He told me too take all my anger and sadness on someone else because if I had a problem with him dating other girls while dating me that he didn't want me anymore, that he was too good for me and that he wants to find someone perfect. Cause "We are just supplements till he finds someone smarter and prettier than all us."
For weeks even months I cried and cried endlessly not letting anybody know my pain. About what he said and how he really is, how I missed him-the old him, about that day... the day I found out he was cheating. Not with just one girl but 6. He was a player and I knew that then but I still loved him deep down inside and I knew I would never forget him. He was my only love, my first love, and my first heartbreak. And he left me... how am I supposed to fall in love again without being so insecure. Cause every time I fall for someone I get crushed.
"My loneliness was rattling the windows. You said you don't want me anymore, and you left me standing on a corner crying feeling like a fool trying I don't even remember why I'm wasting all these tears on you. I wish I could erase our memory. Cause you didn't give a damn about me. You ain't worth another sleepless night and I'll do anything to get you off my mind. Cause what you wanted I couldn't give. What you did well I'll never forget, and you left me, standing on a corner crying, feeling like a fool for trying and I can't even remember why I'm wasting all these tears on you"
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