Waking up every morning thinking how far will I make it today before giving up.. But then I remember that I have God on my side, that makes it a little easier. Knowing that I'm never alone makes me feel safe even though there's no human presents around me, I smile a little and keep going. After many years of being tired of living I finally had a huge braking point everything around me was falling apart and everyone around me were braking apart, I felt as if my life was coming to an end, and I was only twenty. I tried to keep my cool and I kept on pushing, but no matter how far I got trouble and pain was always in my way, my mom got very sick when I was twenty one and I swear to god I cried for a month. Hoping and praying for her to get better, but I always kept in mind that God had a plan so I let go and let God handel it. It didn't get easier but knowing I always had someone with me kept me calm and sane. A few months later my mom got worse and she passed away, it was the worst day of my life I didn't think I'd be able to eat, sleep or live ever again. I cried and cried, but the tears only made me feel weak and tried. Finally years passed and i somewhat started to become myself again, I met someone I didn't completely despise and it felt good. We became very close and I let myself go a little, I let myself believe I had someone, I let myself believe I could at last depend on someone. Little did I know that life had more upcoming surprise for me. By now you should already know that
I lost another person, that I cherished and loved. I lost the love of my life, my rock, my brighter half, my everything. At this point the only thing living in me was my soul, twenty eight years old with no purpose in life. I was empty I was dead inside.
