His Mate

We didn't have to

After he left the pain seemed to make itself known. Surging through my system and ending in my stomach as cramp after cramp rolled over me.

I laid back on the bed my head hitting the head board just a little, groaning I rubbed at my head and sat up. Running to the bathroom, everything I'd ate in the last 20 minutes came up from my stomach and out into the toilet. Disgusting.

Slowly getting up, I quickly changed to my clothes and walked out of the bathroom. Grabbing whats left on my plate I just made my way out the room deciding on scoping out the place I'm at.

I only made it the kitchen to place my plate in the sink before I looked out the little window. It was snowy, the clouds giving the sunshine a wiry look as it shone through the snow covered trees. My stomach rippled again and I found myself bending over the sink and dry heaving.

Maybe it's not a good idea to look around today. So instead I slowly made my way into the living room. It wasn't bare but it certainly wasn't homey. Just a couch adjacent to a little fire place and opposite a little t.v.

It didn't matter, I didn't plan to stay here very long. The only thing that was rendering me useless. At least the voice were gone for now. My back hit the couch just as another wave of pain hit me.

"Uugghh it hurts." My stomach felt like someone was ripping it apart, piece by piece. I was now laying face down on the couch my butt slightly up in the air as a pillow was curled up against my stomach.

My arms clutched the pillow as another wave of pain hit me. "Uugghh."

"Faith?" I flopped on my side, the rest of the pillows placed behind me. Blake stood by the hallway a concern look on his face. "There's aspirin in the car..."

"No aspirin doesn't work." I glared at him.

He glared right back "Well, I don't know how to stop the pain then. I was just trying to help."

"Help?" My eyebrow rose and I stood up, my right hand on my stomach. A sudden wave of emotions passed me, mainly anger. Anger at him, at everyone. "Your the one that did this to me. I would have been a great mother." His form started to get blurry as the tears formed and realization hit me. I quickly tried to wiped them away and whispered the last part. "I could of taken care of him." And I could have, I've taken care of myself long enough to know how and besides Jordan and Tim could have helped.

Blake's glare let up as he sighed and took a step closer to me. "Little hunter, I know this is hard but I couldn't of kept you safe there."

I looked up at him through my lashes. "Tim could of kept me safe. He has all those years. I could of found someone to help me."

A low growl sounded from his throat. "No one will raise my child besides me."

Another way of anger over came me and I couldn't help what flew out of my mother. "Your child is currently flowing out of my vagina in the form of blood. "

His eyes turned black and he took a step closer to me. "You don't think this isn't hurting me. To know my pup is gone before he even got a chance... I would rather him not be born then live his life on the run, its bad enough I have to bring you. But I would never let someone else raise him if I left you there, even if I did leave you there you would have been dead. "

My shoulders dropped and my eyes watered again. "If you left me Tim would of taken care of me."

His gripped his hair and turned around, breathing in deeply. "Have you not notices the way they were treating you now? They didn't even want you at there house better yet around there unborn child." with that he walked out the living room. The sound of the living room door slamming shut a few minutes later.

I couldn't believe him, why was I so stupid to think he would understand. Tim and I may have had our down falls but we always made up for it in the long run, I could have been happy with my child. I could have watched him or maybe even a her run around and play.

My vision grew worse as the tears flowed freely now. The pain was too much, both the mental and the physical, all my senses we dulled, those stupid pills making a return. "Fück" I screamed and threw a pillow were Blake last stood, pretending that I would have hit him, with something larger. And more sharper.

My knees buckled beneath me, my hands wiping the tears away. "Shít." My wrist were burning now, as I bent them to wipe at my tears. Little specks of red appeared on the white bandage.

I had to get out of here, away from him. Maybe not now, but soon. This pain was unbearable, it was getting harder to hold everything in. I just wanted to be numb again.

Have this pain be gone. No more feelings, no more pain, physical or mental. I finally broke. The tears kept coming, my wrist burning and bleeding. My vision blurry as red and green passed me, surrounding me.

Circling me until all I could see was that color and slowly everything faded black and I was out for hours after that.

****

"Faith?" My shoulders shook, warm hands wrapped tightly around me. "Faith come on, wake up." Once again my body was shook and a small groan left my lips. "Little hunter, please." He whispers so low it sounded as if I had imagined it.

I felt my eyes crack open, it felt weird, like I wasn't in control of my body. The first thing that invaded my vision was Blake's piercing blue eyes and his puckered pink Cupid's bow type lips.

His hand rested on my cheek, worry and concern flashed through his eyes before he masked it.

He masked them well and that sent a sudden wave of anger through me. Why wasn't I good enough to see his emotions? But instead I responded with, "Why are you touching me?"