One to Another - quiet, kind & special people

Part 38 - Finn

My fingers intertwined with Rae's. This could only be more perfect if I could touch her properly. But right now I am grateful that she is letting me touch her at all. It feels right and I know by having her in my life that I will eventually have her trust. I just need to make sure that I get my shit together.

"So, I am curious. What did mum say to you when you came over?" Rae asks me looking embarrassed as to what her mum may have said.

"She's alright" I reply with a knowing smile.

"Finn, my mum is..." "someone that loves her daughter dearly" I interrupt. "She loves you Rae, in fact she is really protective. She wanted to know who I was and why I was on your doorstep" I carefully explain. "I am in no doubt that if I hurt you she will hunt me down" I conclude with that smile I give when I am coaxing a response from Rae.

"Finn, you know she would certainly make you pay for it" delivered with the smile I was hoping for and a laugh. Rae's laugh. She is relaxed. I can feel Rae's fingers moving in the palm of my hand. I feels random. I close my eyes. I take it all in. I am fighting off a smile. I have missed her with every part of me. I slyly open my eye just enough to check out what Rae is doing. I have to know if she is as happy as I am. I note that her eyes are closed but she is wearing an awesome smile. It makes me feel incredible but torn. I want to press my lips against hers but I can't afford for our spell to be broken and for her to leave. I wish we could preserve this moment. We lay there for the longest time music filling the room, but I know it will never be long enough.

"Finn, this CD is almost finished I am going to have to go home soon" she says, I can hear the sadness in her voice.

"You could always stay for dinner Rae, and I can walk you home after" I offer with hopefulness.

"I really should go home, it is too easy for me to stay here Finn" she replies.

"It is ok with me, and dad will be fine, I am sure" I try to convince her.

"How about a compromise, you walk me home now?" she suggests. I am disappointed, but I also know not to push Rae. A friend wouldn't push her.

"I can do that for you Rae" I reply, reluctantly getting up from bed, and holding my hand out to help Rae up. I can see the look of disappointment in her eyes, it mirrors how I feel, but I try really hard to hide my obvious disappointment. "Come on girl, after you" I say. Rae takes my hand, bliss, and I watch her every move as she gets up and I know leaving is the last thing she wants to do.

"Finn, before I go, I want to say good bye to your dad" Rae says.

"My dad would love that Rae" I say, knowing that dad already loves Rae.

"Mr Nel... I mean Gary, thanks for having me over" she says with sweet sincerity.

"Nice to meet you Rae, hope to see you again soon alright" dad says welcoming.

"Thanks, I guess that will depend on whether Finn invites me over" she says teasingly, while winking at me. Fuck, she is so cute. I just want to kiss her so badly. Feel her pressed against me.

"Then I am sure that we will see you very soon then" dad says, smiling and nodding at me.

I grab Rae's hand and pull her towards the front door away from dad. "You know if we don't leave now he will keep you here listening to his music for hours" I say.

"Next time Gary? I would love to listen to your collection, if you have time" Rae pipes up as I drag her out of the door.

"Your on" my dad shouts out.

As I shut the door, I turn to Rae, and think about grabbing her hand again, but pull back thrusting my hands in my pockets. Friends wouldn't hold hands on a walk home. Also I am not dure I would be able to contain myself if I touched her right now. "So the big question Rae, the long or the short way?" I ask.