Seamus' first encounter with James was they were both in James' office on floor, both almost naked, rutting against each other and making out.
Seamus' after put on his clothes and walked out the door.
"Seamus." James called out to him.
He turned and saw James there with his big brown eyes.
He wanted to.
He couldn't.
Couldn't be close.
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His next encounter with James was in the car after Seamus forgot his keys. They moaned and whimpered.
Seamus after sat in the back seat while James drove.
Seamus opened the door and left without a word.
"Hey," James looked over at Seamus.
Oh god he really wanted to.
But not after what happened last time.
He can't be too close.
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This encounter with James that Seamus had was after a celebration party at James' place. They slowed down and took their time. Seamus stood up from the bed and put on his clothes.
"I love you." James mumbled half asleep.
Seamus couldn't say anything.
"Stay." James sat up.
He froze.
"I want you here. I want to be with you but you just don't want to get close."
"We need space."
"You're afraid that if we get to close," James stood up and caressed Seamus' cheek. "I'll break your heart."
Seamus grabbed James' wrist tight. I pressed his forehead onto James'. Tears started running down. Then James lifted his head up and pressed his lips against Seamus' to comfort him.
"I will be close and close isn't even close enough."
