They say that a fire needs oxygen to survive, otherwise it will burn out. Maddie is like that to me-- oxygen to light my fire. I'm doing much better in dance now. And we've had sex three times now.
I know it's wrong. And I know that everyone thinks I'm perfect.
But I'm not.
I have to have Maddie. The problem is, nobody knows about us. And they won't ever know. Maybe because we're afraid. Maybe because we're just shy.
But I love Maddie. And there is nothing more that I want from her than to just love me as much as I love her.
***
I lie in Maddie's bed, wearing only my bra and underwear. Maddie is in her bathroom, getting ready for bed.
I sigh and pull up the covers, turning over in bed. We are sleeping together because Maddie told her mom that her air mattress popped.
I think her mom is onto us.
Maddie crawls into bed, wearing the same thing as me.
"Hey," she whispers. I pull her into my arms without a second thought.
"Hey," I whisper back.
Maddie wraps her legs around my waist, and I bite my lip. We entangle our arms until we can't tell whose is whose, and our lips brush but don't touch.
"We'll be caught soon," I tell her, reaching out to turn off the light. She grabs my arm before I can reach the lightswitch, though, and states at me.
"What?" I ask.
"You're not you," she tells me. "What's up?"
I sigh. I knew I couldn't hold it in forever.
"Well," I begin, "I'm just tired. Tired of being everyone's role model. Tired of being at every competition just for publicity." I pause. "Tired of dancing."
Maddie cuts me off with a kiss, slow and full of sorrow. She doesn't want me to leave. But she doesn't want me to be unhappy.
"God, Maddie," I say, breaking the kiss. "It's just dance."
But Maddie frowns. And she has good reason to-- dance is EVERYTHING.
I can't stand to see her like this. I attack her lips, biting her lower lip and pulling her closer to me. She moans into the kiss and slides her hands down to my butt, where she takes my underwear off. I do the same to her.
I press my pussy up against hers, then gingerly stick a finger inside of her. She moans again, moving her lips down my jaw to nibble on my neck. This time I'm the one moaning.
I slip Maddie's bra off, then take mine off, too. Maddie's lips slink from my neck to my right breast, and she slowly begins to suck on my nipple. I feel her tongue swirl around it, and my nipples slowly grow hard.
I shove another finger into Maddie, and she bites down on my nipple.
"Urgh," I grunt, holding in a scream. At once, I slide under the covers and shove my face into Maddie's pussy. My tongue darts inside of her, and she grabs the sheets in both of her fists.
"Chloe," she says, beginning to pull away. "I'm gonna cu--"
"God dammit," I say quietly, "just do it."
I slide my tongue in all the way right as she cums. It feels amazing, having Maddie all to myself.
Maddie flips me over and literally grabs my pussy in her fist. I bite down on my lip to keep from screaming out.
"You like that?" Maddie asks, squeezing. She shoves her entire fist inside of me, and it's utter bliss.
Right as I feel the pressure build up, signaling I'm about to cum, the door swings open. Maddie freezes, not daring to move her fist from out of my in case it gives us away. I hold it in, afraid to cum, afraid to moan.
Mackenzie walks into the room, wearing a short nightgown.
"Why are you guys naked?" she asks. I shift slightly. I'm going to cum. Hold it in, hold it in...
"You're together, aren't you?" Mackenzie asks. Maddie, getting angry, clenches her fist, shifting inside of me. I let out a squeak of pain, and she immediately looks at me.
I can't help it. I cum all over her fist, and she closes her eyes briefly in pleasure.
Mackenzie walks over and rips the sheet off, revealing all of the stains on the sheets and my body pressed against Maddie's.
"I won't tell," Mackenzie begins, "if you don't tell mom that I'm lesbian, too." Even though the sheets are off, Maddie grabs at my breast. I moan, then cover my mouth with my hand. Mackenzie looks jealous.
"Look," Mackenzie says quickly, "I have a secret girlfriend, and I was wondering if tomorrow I could do it with her in your bed."
I just stare. Mackenzie? DOING it? But she's so young!"
"Fine," Maddie grumbles. Then I catch her say, "whore" under her breath.
