Lost (d.cimorelli)

one

it was completely silent in the car. no radio, no loud overlapping voices as everyone tried to desperately get their words heard. no fighting, no one saying anything in fear of tears being shed. the car rolled up to the house and the doors slowly opened, the gravel crunched under the weight of multiple people's feet as they exited the van. everyone slowly walked up to the house as the oldest girl unlocked the door and let everyone into their parent's house. the parents had gotten home before the rest of the kids, excluding the youngest 3 boys who were at one of the girl's friend's house to spend the night. 

the parents heard the door shut so they quickly rushed into the main room. they stopped and tried to offer a comforting smile but the oldest daughter quickly shook her head. her youngest sister wasn't in a condition to be seeing someone smile, not after a funeral that belonged to the person she loved the most that wasn't family. lisa, the third oldest, cleared her throat softly and took half a step forward. she gently touched dani's shoulder. 

"Dani, do you want fo-" in a blink, dani pushed past her sisters and rushed upstairs. the family downstairs could hear her footsteps and then the slam of her bedroom door; followed by a cry. the family sighed and shared regretful and saddened looks before all making their way to the living room to sit and whisper conversations. 

dani stood upstairs in her bedroom and looked around, her breath hitching when she saw the picture that meant the world to her. she let out a shaky breath and bit her lip until it starting bleeding. her feet  shuffled over to her vanity mirror where she grimaced at her reflection. her eyes were red and her cheeks pink and stained with tears. 

her phone starting ringing and she forced herself to look at who was calling. she looked at her screen through blurry eyes and made out the word "elli's momma" before gasping. she dropped the phone onto the desk not caring if it shattered. her hands gripped the desk until her knuckles turned completely white. she looked at herself in the mirror once again and saw the picture pinned to her wall, her heart skipping a beat in the most painful way possible.

dani pushed herself away from the desk that had become her life support for a few seconds before stumbling over to her bed and ripping the picture off the wall. her head stayed bowed as she held the picture of her and elli, tearing falling from her face and splattering onto the picture before slowing rolling off. she looked so happy and dani couldn't believe how much 2 months could change. from when that picture was taken to the moment she was in. 

a knock at her door made her jump bad. the door creaked open but dani didn't know who it was, she remained with her back to the door. the person cleared their throat and dani could hear them whisper a small 'you can speak to her' to themselves. 

"Dan? um..you want me to bring you food or a water bottle?" lauren. out of all people. they sent lauren. dani closed her eyes and sighed softly. why couldn't they realize that she obviously needed to be alone? 

"get out." dani muttered and laid down, not once letting lauren see her face. lauren opened her mouth to say something, to convince dani to drink something at least but lauren sighed in defeat. she knew she wouldn't win this fight and she didn't want to create the fight. lauren gave up and backed out of the room, shutting the door.

dani heard the small click of the door and looked over her shoulder to see she was completely alone. her lip bled again as she bit it harder to keep from letting more feelings out. she looked at the picture in her hand for a couple seconds before a loud sob broke from her sore raspy throat. it burned and dani let out a small scream, in pain more emotionally than physically. nevertheless she was both, but she didn't scream from getting a cut. she screamed because she realized that her best friend was gone and she was not coming back at all, and it felt like she had been stabbed constantly as people rubbed it in. she was in pain and she needed her bestfriend elli...but elli was dead.