“I’ve wanted a lot of things in life. To be happy, to fall in love. To be with that person that means the most to me, even in the worst of times. And for a long time, that person was you. I wanted a future with you. A house we bought together and turned into a home. Children that looked just like us only with your heart and my soul. I wanted everything with you. But it’s crazy how things change. All I want now, is to yell at you. I want to slap you across the face. I want to be angry and hurt you the way you did me because I want to stop hurting at the sound of your name. I want to stop aching at the sound of your voice. I want to stop constantly checking my phone for a message that I know will never come. I want to erase you from my life just as easily as you erased me. I want to hate you. God I want to hate you so much. With every fiber of my being I want to be able to not give a shit about you… But I can’t. I just can’t do it. I can’t hate someone I’ve loved for so long. I can’t say that I don’t care when you’re the one constant in my mind. God sometimes I wish I could hate you. But life isn’t fair, and we don’t always get what we want.”
