A Beautiful Mess

Eight

London:

I sat up and patted back my hair. "Zyale." I cleared my throat. "I miss you London. I'm trying to get back on the right path. I'm not in the streets no more." He grinned.

I nodded, "Great" Truth is I fucking hated him right now, he left us and is going to act like we're all buddy-buddy. Hell no.

"Jada, Let's go." She clung tightly to her dad's leg. "Bye daddy" She smiled. He disregarded her comment and glared at me. "Hol up. I'm telling you I'm doing better all you say is great? Yea, I know but can I get a little more. I miss yall" He cocked his head back. He usually did that when he was mad.

"What more do you want? That's fantastic that you're doing good." I snapped, picking Jada up. "And by the way, your daughter just said hi. The fact that you complete disregarded her statement is pissing me the fuck off, goodbye Zyale." I stormed off.

"Wait now. Jada," I tapped my foot, he best not be going there. "Do you miss daddy?" Yep, he went there.

"Yes, momma said you were on vacation! Why didn't we go?" She slightly turned her head. "Sorry babygirl. I'll come visit you. How bout I pick you up tomorrow?" He smiled walking up to her.

"Yes!" She squealed loudly. "Alright." I took her back. "Call me. I have work tomorrow." I rolled my eyes walking away. "Okay." He mumbled.

I buckled Jada in handing her my iPad, I don't know where we're heading because I don't exactly have a home. I looked for a hotel, and in my luck there was one. "Jada c'mon babygirl." I opened her car door. I attempted to unbuckle her seat belt but she stopped me. "I'm a big girl Mommy, I can work a seat belt, see!" She unbuckled herself. "Alright missy."

I picked her up and our duffel bag checking in. "Thank you" I muttered to the man at the front desk. "Your welcome." He plastered on a smile. I turned and rolled my eyes, making my way to my room. I packed our belongings away and watched Jada. "I like this place better than the last one momma." She twirled in a circle. "Yea...." I drifted off.

She yawned and walked up to me rubbing her eye. "I'm sweppy." I picked her up placing her near me. "I am too honey, plus, you see daddy tomorrow so get some rest." I hugged her up. "Night mommy, I love you." She kissed my forehead. I kissed her gently, "Baby I love you too" She fixed herself into a position that was considered comfortable and slept soundly.

A few tears leaked from my eyes. I hate this life style.

-Morning-

*Beep Beep Beep*

I glanced at the clock. 8:00 am. "Jada, wake up." I shook her carefully. She stretched her tiny limbs and crawled out of bed. "Ready to go by daddy?" I took her hand, bringing her toward the bathroom.

"Yes!" She immediately woke up, "Go get my toys please, I want to play race cars with daddy." She started to bathe her skin. "Alright Ja." I started picking up all her belongings, including mine. I tucked Jada's things into a Dora bookbag. Once I finished and everything looked okay I changed into my stripper clothing, placing a jogging outfit over it.

"Jada, you done?" I entered the bathroom. "Yes lady, I was waiting." She snapped her fingers. "Watch your attitude missy." I passed her, her favorite towel. "Sorry momma" I kissed her forehead. "It's fine baby, let's go." I spritzed some lotion and applied it to her small body. I slipped on her outfit and put her curly hair up. "Ready honey?" , "Ready mommy."

I grabbed the bag, made sure I had the room key, and picked Jada up in my left arm. I jogged toward the car, pulling out the address I had received from Boss. Once I arrived at Zyale's home and honked a few times he appeared at the step. "Hey my two favorite girls." I gritted my teeth at his comment. Does he think he could just waltzed his ass up into my life? But it doesn't even matter because sadly: He did.

Jada ran at full speed jumping into her fathers big arms. He looked more toned, he looked like he grew up. A lot. I walked up the steps handing him Jada's things. "Here you go. I'll call you when I get off from work. Thank for watching her Zyale." I gave a wry smile. "My pleasure. I'm taking up for lost moments." He smiled. Which got me aggravated for some reason. Wait, not for 'SOME reason' He left us at the time I - WE needed him most and I won't forgive him. "Well I'm going to work, have fun babygirl." I kissed her cheek. "Bye momma." She hugged me. "What do you work as?" Zyale placed Jada down. "At a gym" I referred to my gym attire even though I was lying. "That's a lot of makeup to be wearing at a gym." He pointed out. "I like to look good." I said in my own defense.

"Oh alright. Bye." He shut the door in my face. "Rude ass nigga!" I scowled reaching the bottom of the steps. I hopped into my car, plugging in the directions to this guy's house. I fiddled around with the GPS but finally got it to start up. "There we go." I stepped on the gas pedal pulling off.

I reached the house in thirty minutes still having at least ten minutes to spare. "This is for my daughter's sake." I reminded myself over and over again. I entered and swore I heard familiar voices but shook it off, soon enough I was standing waiting for the guy to enter the room. "Hello babygirl." His voice sent chills down my spine. "Let's get to work baby." I smirked. "You right" He sat in the chair. I walked, one foot in front of the other swaying my hips slightly. His eyes focused directly on me. I picked a leg up slowly tracing the pole with my inner thigh.

After forty exhausting minutes, I managed to keep my energy up. I continuously thrusted my hips on him and he grunted in pleasure. "Ion usually say this but you was good as hell." He handed me a large wad of cash. "Here's seven thousand"

"Yo, when is my -"

I glanced up and my face immediately contorted into rage and anger. "You, Zyale, are supposed to be fucking watching your daughter!" I screamed. "I'm s- wait, hol the fuck up, Ain you supposed to be at a gym?" He raised his eyebrow. I stomped over to him, my heels clanking loudly against the wooden floor. "It does not matter where the fuck I am! I tell you to watch Jada I mean fucking watch her, not come over to some guys house and not supervise my god damn child! She wanted to spend the day with her god forsaken father but you are such an asshole you place her- ion even know where she at!" I slapped him. "Where is she?!" I screamed in his face. He pulled his hand back and I flinched waiting for impact. Nothing came. "Yo, don hit yo girl" The guy held his fist. I smiled at him and returned my face back to Zyale's. "My house, she's with my new girl."