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Chapter 1

Breen's POV

So I'm the girl that has all of the cuts everywhere. I'm also that girl in your class that doesn't want anyone to get close.
I'm the loser that no one understands.
I'm that girl where she gets made fun. I'm the one that tries suicide. I didn't know it then and I didn't expect him to save me. Hell, I didn't realize that he would stop me.
~~~Before~~~~
I stood in the bathroom with the blade in my hand slicing it through my skin. No one will every understand you. That's all my mind seemed to say now. Your an ugly bitch that needs to die. Tears were running down my face and blood was everywhere. Then I wiped the tears away, and then I saw the blood.
Blood...
It was all over my sink. All over my arm. And then I grabbed a paper towel. It's the normal thing now. Cut somewhere and then clean it up. Like it never happened. I had cuts on my thighs and on my arms. Bitch u need to go die in a hole. Maybe one day I will. Then there will be no more pain.
Ill finally be happy.
Anyways I wasn't always like this. Not always cutting. No friends. When I had friends. They never knew. I wanted to keep it like that, but then my little brother died, and soon it became worst. I started cutting. Then I became suicidal. I tried my first time in the 8th grade. Don't ask what it was, but anyways I decided if I didn't want anyone hurt then I'll have to not have anyone close to me.
So that's how that went. I didn't have friends. It was so lonely. I sorta became that gothic girl but I don't dress in all black. Just my hair. I tell everyone to leave and not to get close.
Anyways back to the present to cutting. I put a bandage on it and walked out. I cleaned the sink to where no one would know. My mom and dad where probably in their room. They never come out after my brother died. He was like one of those really happy people.
He always cheered every one up. So I started making dinner on my own and practically started living on my own. They only came out to go to work. We aren't anything like we used to be. We used to be a happy family. So yea.
~~~Next Day~~~
As I walk into my first period class I walk to the back as usual. I woar the same long sleeved jacket. To hide the cuts. This class is science and I don't have a partner and everyone knows to stay away from me.
Then the bell rang. Mrs. Naysa walked in with a new guy and man he was hot. (Pic above of him) I snickered to myself bc my mind still works that way.
When I was with my ex old friends we would always joke around about a guy being hot. "Hello everyone I hope you have had a good morning so far. This is Makram White. You will be sitting next to...." She looked around and spotted me. "Breen Greenly," She smirked. So this is pay back, bitch? Well me and Mrs. Naysa didnt get along every well. We may get into that later.
Anyways White came walking over. "Hello I'm-" I interrupted him with my hand. "I know who you are and your kind. You will eventually fit into the popular kids and forget all about the bitch in science, and by the way you probably should stay away from me." He looked stunned that girl like me would ever that. I smirked at him. "You don't know me," he whispered to where I almost didn't get it. We'll see.
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A/n
I guess that was the first chapter. Omg that went so fast. Plz comment below about how that when. And Mr. Whitley will be at the top. And let me get two thing put out of the way. This book is decaded to all of the people with depression. I know it must be hard expectly if you've never come forward about it. Hang in there life gets better. Believe me. Anyways the second thing is that I mainly write romance and I thought this would be fun to write about a girl with depression. So yalls know what they go on a daily basis. Plz be careful what u say to people cuz u never know what they go through. Anyways😘

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Madison!!!!!
Ps Jack I hope u like it.