FRIENDZONE

Just friends, I hate that phrase, every I hear it feel like all my hopes collapsed, I feel as if I had spent my time, as if I had made an investment without raising, is almost as if I'd been kicked in the ass and the boot has been stuck there, figuratively course !, but seriously hurts me a lot, and it's not before I have had a boot on my ass !, but it's just a way of expressing my pain.

Although it is the third time that Fernanda plays baseball with my feelings, I will not give up until I can complete the race without being struck, they say that the third time is the good one, but that does not apply in my case, maybe my Lucky number is the number four, or maybe the number five, or six or seven, I do not know, maybe I'm a guy destined to be unlucky, but to be honest I do not believe in luck, I only usually say I'm lucky when I go to the store (tienda*) and after paying, they give me back more money than I used to pay, that's to be lucky !, I'm sixteen years, with grips but is life, and since I was fourteen I like Fernanda, I honestly do not know, but what I see on her I can not see in the other girls, although all have eyes, eyebrows, feet, nose ... well, almost all !, because there is a poor chick named Esmeralda who lost an eye when she was eating a corn on the cob (elote*), apparently as a child she was happy eating corn on the cob with a sharp stick and jumping the rope, and suddenly, an angry bumblebee stung her in the eye, and they had to remove her eye, She's happy now, but without eye .

But, whats about the gorgeous Fernanda Briano it is that since I like her I tried to say her what I feel, also she says no, the first time I told her my feelings, she told me she just wanted me as a friend, Anyway, I did not give up and I kept trying, the second time she said she wanted me just like a good friend, and her parents would not let her hang-up with someone until three years from now, when she turned eighteen, but two days later he was already out and canoodling with the hatefull Octavio Carbajal, the typical good-looking guy, athletic, rich and gallant, but he still being a idiot, and if he is not, for me he still like a idiot, but if he invite me to dinner Hawaiian pizza with his group... obviously

I will go, but he would still looking like a moron, but a moron with popular friends of those who give you that pizza that you like. And the third time was yesterday, last November 22, 2013 official day of break his heart to Ernesto Gonzalez, she told me that she loved me as a brother, and I admit that was baffling, since I have idea, I have not linked with her enough to tell me that she loves me as a brother, and well, now I hope that after tomorrow she will flirting with a handsome guy, and he was not me of course. Maybe that's why it is, I've thought it several times, maybe it's because I'm not very attractive I'm a guy of white skin, slim, thin, brown eyes coffee poop color, nose a little small, slightly elongated, straight hair and a tall of one hundred point eighty-three centimeters, I would like to play sports, but I get tired watching TV, so I think that if I try to exercise I will die, and I'm really too lazy to know if I die or not, so I'll leave it unfinished. And Fernanda, Fernanda is very pretty, a little silly but it's pretty, she is brown hair, is more nonwhite light skin, her height is not low or so high, I think that I win with only fifteen centimeters, her eyes are between greenish brown tone, rather gray, and fine and short nose, and his physique has ten, but though her IQ estimated is four.

I admit that if we had children, they would not be ugly as I, plus their second names would be very handsome, "Gonzalez Briano" if the first son was a boy, Ernesto would be called, like me, because knowing Fernanda I would hesitate about he to be my son, so if he was not my son, he would be my namesake, but of course, first we have to get married, and before we were married, I need to ask for her hand, and before asking for her hand, I need to talk to her parents, and before talking with her parents I need to date her and before date her, I need her to aceept me... Fuck! I don't think it was so difficult, I better put my headphones and I'm listening to my favorite band, my tastes are rare, I like indie, which makes me feel independient as their songs, I'm listening to Polish Girl from Neon Indian , which has a vocalist who is from the same country as me, but not of the same state, I also enjoy the GOA music, perhaps that hinder my opportunities with Fernanda, sometimes I start thinking about my ex-girlfriend and I'd like to go back with her, but then I remember that my whole life I have been single and I stop thinking about it.

I get up from the couch and tell my mom that I go out with my friends, she tells me to put a sweater, but I refuse, it's May and without sweater I feel hot, so, with sweater I will melt, figuratively of course, but my mom always with her gut overprotective feeling, feeling that if I fall a step I will hit with the ground in a way that I will explode and she never could see me again, although she is on-going with her nips at familiar parties, I love her, and if I would not, I will put up with, because I can not change my mom, not even in the catafixia* with Chabelo*.

Reaching at the place where I was supossed to meet with my friends, I spot them all Hector dwarf, Edgar pale, and Henry who seems like a Peruvian, I have nothing against any race, but he seriously seems like a Peruvian also I see that there's a chick with them, I do not know her, She's not black, neither tall nor short, neither skinny nor chubby, neither ugly or pretty, after a moment of discomfort I talk to her, we turned and started to talk, my friends after a while begin toleave, they have to go to their no-online English course, and others who have to go with their girlfriends, I guess if they do not go their girlfriends, they will beat them, or so it seems.

After about an hour to start a conversation with the X Eliza chick, I realized that we have a lot of things in common, we talk about food tastes, music, books, and for the first time I feel good to be talking with a woman who is not my familiar.

In fact I feel her uniqueness as something special, and well, honestly I feel like I started to like her, she tells me about his love affairs and his good and bad experiences, and I take this opportunity to tell her about Fernanda, and also she consoles me, and thinking that she's the one, I say I will not pray back to Fernanda, and I ask if someone likes her, she looks at me and shakes, I know I intimidate her, she turn to see me directly at the eyes and invites me to take a coke, I agree, although I do not like the soda in general, but I guess the love stultifies us, although I am a complete idiot with or without love. After finishing the soda, I again ask the question: who likes you ?, she looks at me with a flirty look, I feel nervous, and suddenly she answers very safe ... you. I blush, I feel as if my heart was going to leave my chest, Then she turned to seeme and I ask her if it's serious. She laughs and answer with a no, she tell me that she's a lesbian since a few months ago, but she does not feel very safe telling it to everyone, so again I feel like when Fernanda hit me, so after a while we said goodbye. When I arrive at home I start thinking, I guess Eliza helped me to set to Fernanda in the past, because I said I would not pray, and I am man who do what he say. Perhaps Fernanda is not the one, perhaps not Eliza, then who will ?, I turned to my feet and my little chihuaha female dog ​​Fifi looks at me with big eyes, maybe Fifi... maybe Fifi will be the only female creature who loves me whithout counting my mother, I put my hand to my pant and seek my phone, right out two coins fall, what I find strange, because I only had a twenty pesos*, and coke cost me ten, so I assume that this time I was lucky, I met a lesbian, I realized that I have to forget to Fernanda, I had a free soda, and also discovered that my love is Fifi, the sexy Fifi...