My Baby You'll Be (Laurmani)

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At this very moment Lauren forgot what breathing feels like. Shes no longer blinking, her hand is no longer rubbing the smooth skin of Normani's stomach, instead completely frozen.

The brown girl noticed her sudden change in demeanor so to end the silence she talks again "God.. I'm sorry I didn't mean to make you feel weird. That was stupid. Nevermind lets go to sleep"

"No!" Lauren protested almost too quickly "um- I mean just tell me what you had to say I'm sure it wasn't stupid" 'Please' She pleaded to herself.

Normani connected eyes with her and sighed before looking up at the ceiling.

What was she doing? She had no idea what the next words out of her mouth would be. She didn't know why she was feeling like this & quite frankly she didn't want to feel like this. It felt weird. Lauren was her bestfriend for Christ sake, Normani had no right to find her to be the most beautiful woman in the world. Normani had no right to have stomach flutters everytime the green eyes looked at her. She had no right to be thinking the thoughts that are running through her mind right now.

While looking up at the ceiling she mentally scolded herself for opening her mouth in the first place. This was all stupid. So stupid. Extremely stupid. So she decided to forget it.

But little did she know the only reason Laurens reaction was so stunned was because her heart was fluttering out of her chest. Little did she know as she was staring at the ceiling Lauren was anxiously waiting for her to finish her thought. Anxiously waiting for her to tell her something. Preferably everything that she wanted to hear.

"You know.. Nevermind Lauren it was stupid." She decided to take the easier more sensible option and not tell her how she felt because she didn't even know how she felt her own self. How could she explain feelings she didn't understand? She didn't even know why these thoughts of Lauren ran through her mind keeping her awake.

The Latinas voice came out whiny and raspy "You um- are.. are you sure?" She felt like this moment was slipping away. The way Normani had said it she knew she had something to tell her. But now Lauren just feels stupid for thinking that Normani would confess feelings for her. Why would she do that? Normani doesn't love her the way she does. Lauren is just.. well Lauren and Normani is the most beautiful woman in the world.

Normani heard the question but instead of responding she rolled back over and closed her eyes, being sure to return Lauren's hand to its appropriate spot.

The Latina sighed not understanding what had just taken place. But she returned to doing her job. Running her hand smoothly across the skin of her bestfriends stomach, helping her to fall alseep.

She snuggled her face into the back of Normani's neck, finding comfort in holding her so close. She smelled like heaven, vanilla heaven.

Once the brown girls breathing slowed down Lauren knew she had finally fallen asleep. But for some reason she still couldn't, she laid thinking. A thousand thoughts had ran through her head before she let out another long sigh through her nose "I love you Normani, I wish I could tell you".

//

(1 Year Later)

"Wtf Lauren? She really fucking did that to you? How could any body.. That's just so- God!" Normani couldn't even register what she had just heard. How in the hell could someone intentionally hurt her bestfriend. This gave her all the more reason to hate that bitch, she knew it from the beginning.

Lauren heard Normani's voice, it was cracking while she was trying to hold back anger and tears as she yelled through the phone.