ZAROORAT

chapter 19

Mashaya's POV

We were eating dinner silently. This silence was killing me inside, since the day I said yes to this proposal everyone's behavior towards me is odd. Mama is behaving quite with me, baba is always on his work but when he comes home he just thanked me that I agreed to this marriage and my only friend who is more likely my sister is behaving od with me for some reasons. The reason must be shahveer.

This thought broke my heart even more. Khud usey keh rai thi k mujhe bhool jao lekin mein hi usey ab take bhool nai Saki.

"Mashaya beta khana khao". Mama's voice brought me back into the reality but I shook my head at her. "Mama bhook nai hai". I clearly lied to them and before they had a chance to ask me anything I got up and leave them there. Although I felt them frowning at my back but I didn't dare to look back.

After some moments baba called me in the lounge and I sat beside mama. I was confused and my heart beats were on marathon. I kept playing with the ends of my veil in nervousness when baba cleared his throat.

"Beta! Are you happy!?" He asked his face was tensed, i smiled at him and nodded. "Jab ap sab khush hen toh phir mein bhi khush hun". I replied shortly and he nodded still unsure.

I went to his side and squeezed his hands. "Baba trust me I am happy, I know that you have chosen the best for me I don't have any complaints with you". I said and he sighed nodding again.

"Beta! Dil toh nahi manta k apni beti ko khud se dur Jane dun but i promise you that he will take care of you Actor bhi hai business man bhi hai achi family se hai. Buhat khush rakhega woh tumhien!" He said and I chuckled "jab apko itna bharosa hai us pe toh phir mujhe koi problem nai hai baba". He shook his head and brought my face near him as he kissed my for head.

Mama complained like a little kid. "Ap dono toh mujhe bhool hi jate hen, I exist in this world too". I quickly got up and gave her a teddy bear wala hug. She chuckled stroking my arms and tears form in my eyes. I will miss these days.

Shahveer's POV

3:13 am and I tossed in my bed again. Not that I was bot sleepy but I was scared to go out and face the reality. I just don't want anything. "Ab toh har cheez be-maqsad lagti hai. Apne hi wajood se be-zaariat hoti hai".  And I tossed in my bed yet again. Sighing helplessly I got up and freshen up my self.

Her voice rang in my head again. You have to let me go shahveer! I put my hands to my ears to prevent this voice.

How mashaya!? How can I let you go? Didn't you saw this in my eyes..... The love I have for you....  Didn't you feel it? Don't you see how much pain I am going through. Why why did you do this? Tears flow down from my eyes like a unstopabble river and I sighed questioning my self again.

"How to heal this wound!?" And just then the azaan came and I sighed I got my answer. I quickly made my way to the washroom then I did ablusion and opened my prayer's met. I peacefully read my Namaz and rais my hands for dua.