Love ,Hate

HOme Sweet Home

These couple days in this hospital l.It aas finally time for us to take my daughter home to her brother and sister.They placed me in a wheel chair and handed me her.

They rolled us out and made sure the carseat was secure then let me put her in.I sat in thw back while Chris drove us home.

Soon as we got home Bri was there waiting "can I hold her now please ma" she got up off the couch along with Cassie.Who was on the phone with someone.

I told Bri to sit on the couch and I slowly placed the baby in her arms.Her face lit up it was so cute.I took a quick picture then went to the make her a bottle "dont move Brianna" I told her she sais Yes ma'am as I warmed the bottle up

I brought it back in there and handed it to Bri "I get to feed her too" she said excited "you want me to do it" I asked her " no I want to do it"  she snatched the bottle and I instructed her how to feed her properly and she did so.

Tj came downstairs "can I hold her now" he asked "wait Teej im feeding her" Bri said to him "be quiet Bri" he yelled "you shutup" she said back to him "both of yall shut yall asses up and give me my damn baby" I told them grabbing Harmony and going up to my room to finish feeding her.

I changed her diaper.Christian came upstairs "you alright" he asked as I burped her "yes I thought you had work" I asked he looked at me "inna minute I wanted to heck on you first" he told me rubbing Harmony head.

"But Im coming home early because I want to go take the little ones to the park then you can do yo work and I can watch the baby" he told me.I smiled "you know I love you right" I asked him " you aint got no choice" he kissed my lips then the babies forehead and left.

You know the smell of a newborn.I love it.Its like so perfect.I love the smell of a newborn and they jair be all soft and curly.

She burped "thats mommy big girl"I told her then I began to play with her "you know mommy will always love you no matter what I will be there in any and every decision you make okay" I told her as she blinked her little eyes.

I sat there and bounced her playung with her.It felt so precious I miss when TJ was this little.Cassie came upstairs "can I see her" she asked and I handed her over.

"Mony" she said "awwee look at her wittle bitty fingerrss yo so precious mama Nook at thoughs eyes" shw cooed I laughed "well I am about yo take a shower" I told her she nodded.

Afer my quick shower,I threw on some basketball shorts and a tank top "I gotta lose this baby phat" I told her jiggling my little baby phat."I used to be fit now I need a gym" I complained then started to cry.

She looked at me like I was crazy "post pardum is the absolute worst" she asked me.I laughed and wiped my face.The kids came upstairs "mom where did dad go" Bri ask "huh?" I said.Was she talking about Travis "dad... he just left like 5 minutes ago" she said "Chris" I asked suprised.Thats the first time I  heard her say that "yea where did he go" she asked " to work he co.ing back to take yall to the park" I told her she smiled "can we go out back and ride the mini cycles" she asked "Cassie can you bring that baby bouncer out back" I asked she nodded then I got ny baby and walked downstairs, and out the door.

The baby began to cry and I got up and went to make her a bottle.I fed her and she went right to sleep.

I put her in the bouncer under the shade and sleeping.