I hate you.....(CreepyPasta FanFic)

Hello guys. It's Sally :D I'm making this super awesome book xD. Lol this book is about a girl named Marise. It's sounds like Ma-rise. Incase you didn't se know. now the chapter my friends :D oh and @Bob_swag_yolo helps with this book

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Marise's POV

Hey I'm Marise. I have golden brown hair that goes to my waist. I have grass green eyes. In case your asking. My name does have a meaning. It means infinity, endless. Yeah. I'm a bit strange if I must say. I have a mental illness called Psychosis.

I had it since I was only 11 I'm now 18 living with this scary illness. I see, smell,feel and taste my hallucinations. I can't do everyday tasks. My change in moods are bad too. it's really bad to live like this With out a mom or dad.

I don't plan to get help, never do, never want to. I guess you an say I'm Bipolar too. Sometimes I just feel like ripping or cutting out all my hair. I physically hate myself with all my mental illnesses and stuff. I really hate the fact my mom kicked me out and hardly talks to me same with my dad. I don't want to go to school because of my panic attacks.

I just want to be a normal person. I sigh loudly.I hardly leave the house because of my bad panic attacks. I used to be in a mental hospital. When I was 16 But I was sent home.

I never wanna be back in that place. They were everywhere. I had a lot of panic attacks. I'm happy that I have my own house. I have One job. I almost didn't get it.

I'm a designer. I co-own a store where I sell the stuff I made. The most I ever made was 3 thousand. I am proud of myself.

Well that's the only self esteem I got and if I lose that job I will have nothing.

I make about a good $2000 dollars in a day. I have a nice medium house I guess, but I choose to stay in one spot, My room. It's the only place where I can think properly and not have panic attacks. I feel safe there.

Today Is another awesome day at work. The new shipping of stuff came in today. I always listen to my music. That also helps calm me down. Music is an amazing thing. I'm just putting the new stuff away.

I sit on the floor and hum as I sort the stuff. Dresses on this side, pants on this side,rings on this side. That's all that came in today.

I only have one friend. It's a boy named Cody. He is a goth/emo person. Well we have things in common. I also am trying to boost him up from the dark hole, he's in.

But for now all I can do is wait and see. He doesn't like talking to anyone but me.

Sometimes I make my own friends too at home named Kylie and Jennifer. Kylie is the evil one she likes to make a big mess in my house and Jennifer is the nice one she always calms me down with my panic attacks of course Cody does too but Jennifer is always with me she is like attached to me, Jennifer is kind of clingy she only gets mad when I tell her to leave me alone.

Well that should be enough of talking about Jennifer and Kylie, I should start working some more instead of just being in my mind all day.

I pushed myself out of my thoughts and I realized there was a lot of customers waiting in line. "I hate when this happens!!" I yell out with a strong bit of anger.

"Marise?" "Are you alright?" the other worker says.

"Ryan!! Do I look alright!!" I shouted at her and I can see In the corner of my eyes the customers frightened. Ryan gives me a weird look as I do it too.

"Look Marise go to the back of the room please!" she whispers loudly in my ear I give her an evil stink eye and walk to the back of the room and start kicking and punching the walls.

A couple minutes later I was still going nuts all the lights are turned off in the back room it's darker then night I could feel the mess around me. I knew I forgot my medicine because I remember not taking it before I got to work.

"Marise are you alright?" I hear Ryan's voice crack full with fear she makes me feel like a living monster.

I didn't speak I just sat there. Ryan didn't even bare to talk to me she was afraid. it was now 6:30 PM I knew my shift was done, I didn't even want to move I felt dead, because I knew if I got up I would have a panic attack again.

"Marise?" "you have to go home...." Ryan said but at the end it sounded like she wanted to say something else but she didn't let it slip. I got up very slowly and grabbed my bag and ran out of the store and sat on the road.

I knew if I did it, it will end my mental illnesses. but I knew I needed to get up and continued to walk home.

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Okay that's the end of this chapter xD. Hope you enjoyed this :) Me and Bob_swag_yolo worked on this together :D

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5/24/14

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