Drunken Confessions (Phan)

St. Patty's ~ 2 ~

  Who was the naked guy on top of of Dan? I have no clue. All I knew was that I felt shocked and enraged. I surged forwards into the janitorial closet and shoved the naked guy off Dan, feeling satisfied at the gush of wind escaping from his lungs. He cries out, and Dan rolls away, grumbling. He squints up at me, shoving fringe out of his face. The naked guy rolls to his feet and runs past me out the door. I turn back to Dan to find him passed out. Well shit.

I check his breathing and pulse, and he's normal. He reeks of booze, so I pin it down to his being drunk. Honestly I was a little buzzed myself, so I turn around and walk out of the closet (literally and metaphorically if I'm being honest). I found Caspar on the dance floor clutching a beer, jumping up and down, sufficiently hammered. I was still angry, at Dan for going and getting drunk and sexual again even though I expressed my feelings on that, and at that naked guy who was very much sober for taking advantage of Dan for a quick off. Is Dan a cute bottom? Yes, yes he is. Will I accept random men to use his cute bottom as a toy? No, no I won't.

It's been about a year since I've come to terms with the fact that I'm in love with Dan. After our last party, we kissed and exchanged 'I love you's, but after that we never discussed it. I really don't know how Dan feels. I'm too nervous to ask. I already know he prefers guys over girls, but does he prefer me over all? I can't bring myself to ask him. What if he rejects me and moves out, never to talk to me again? I couldn't live if that happened! So I keep quiet and watch as he gets drunk and sexy with strangers, because I'm a coward. Once in a while he will get strange with me, like before we leave for the party. He'll bite my neck or slap my butt, smirking all the while. Is that him making a move on me, or just a friendly pat and nip? With Dan it's hard to tell.

I make my way over to Caspar, swiping the beer from his hand and downing it. We dance to a few pop songs, taking beer from passing servers. By now I myself am mostly drunk, swinging my hips and keeping my head back. Time has been lost on me, and it feels like a second and an eternity of dancing at once before some one is hanging onto my shoulders. Caspar giggles, pulling Tyler over and whispering to him. I turn to find Dan shirtless, only wearing his trousers and shoes. His stomach is glistening, but his face is perfectly matte. His hair is all in his eyes, which are bloodshot. A hand traces down my back, sliding in front and landing on my crotch. He presses his wet lips to my ear. "Come with me." He whispers, his hot breath numbing my sensitive skin. He hooks my arm with his and pulls me after him.

I let him drag me away from Caspar, my drunken mind unable to stop my body. The phantom of Dan's breath travels down my body, and suddenly these skinnies are just a tad too tight.

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