Confessions of Jane

Confession #6: I may have created a love triangle.

Waking up I snuggled up against my pillows. But this pillow wasn't soft. It was pretty hard.

Peeking my eyes open I saw Justin. Crap. Where the hell are we??? I thought me and Justin were mad at each other. This is all too much. I tried getting out of bed as quiet and smooth as possible. Once I was half way out Justin grabbed me and pulled me close to him.

Crap. Ugh this can't be happening.

"Um Justin" I said with a raspy morning voice.

"Yeah Jane?" Justin asked with a smirk on his perfect face. God why does he have to look so good in the morning. I started tracing circles on his arms.

"Would you mind um I don't know telling me where the hell I am and what the hell happened yesterday?" I said slightly annoyed.

"You got super drunk at the party last night after making out with James and dancing with some strange guy" Justin said casually like he was talking about the weather.

Omg this can't be happening. It all started coming back to me. Dancing with Joel and him telling me I haven't changed, seeing Justin with some brown haired girl to making out with James. Ew why did I make out with James?

"That's so gross I made out with James? I need to go rinse my mouth out with bleach hold on" I said trying to get up again only failing because Justin is obviously stronger than my weak skinny small self.

Justin just laughed at me and asked if I was hungry.

I mean I'm not really hungry but Justin already knows too much so I might as well try to eat in front of him so he doesn't think I'm completely insane. I swear sometimes he wants to lock me up in a mental hospital just like my mom.

Sitting on a counter in the kitchen I watch shirtless Justin flip pancakes. Mesmerized by his back muscles I casually ask if this is his house.

"No I brought you to some strangers house and broke in. Of course it's my house" he said sarcastically.

"I mean I wouldn't put that past you mister drug dealer." I said kinda rudely. I mean he did take care of me last night I should at least try to be nice.

God I'm the biggest bitch ever. I have no idea why Justin still puts up with me. Playing with the hem of Justin's tshirt Justin catches me off guard and kisses my forehead placing a plate of pancakes next to me.

We eat in silence not one of us daring to ask where we stand with each other. I mean things are just getting awkward and Joel's back and I just can't seem to find my brain these days.

"Thanks for the pancakes" I said with a fake smile.

"You barely ate half of them" Justin said with a frown.

Ugh leave me alone at least I tried. This is getting too hard.

"Um yeah well I kinda have to go home.. Wait do you have my phone?" I asked realizing I don't remember where I put it,

"Yeah it's in my room hold on I'll go get it" Justin said.

I really should meet up with Joel when I'm not awkward or drunk. He's been a good friend at one of my lowest points in life. He knows my deepest darkest secrets, yet I barely know his.

"You have a bunch of messages from this guy named Joel, wait is he the guy you danced with yesterday?" Justin said wonderingly.

"Maybe" I said snatching my phone. "Okay bye Justin gotta blast" I raced for the door but Justin beat me and pinned me to it.

"No way you are not walking home in this neighborhood, I'll drive you" Justin said sternly,

"Ugh Justin you are no fun" I said pouting. Justin snuck a kiss on my pouting lips and made me laugh.

The drive home was alright it only took 2 minutes. I so could of walked. Whatever.

Checking my phone once I got home I saw I had 3 missed calls from Joel and 5 text messages asking where I was and apologizing for upsetting me last night. Oh poor Joel. Stupid Justin.

I called Joel and agreed to meet him at a coffee shop.

This is how our conversation went.

"Jane"

"Joel"

"Sorry about last night"

"It's okay"

"Cards?"

"Sure"

And just like that it was like old times laughing and joking around.

Joel told me he had some family drama to deal with and that's why he never got around to talk to me. I told him it was okay and I hoped he got everything worked out.

Joel asked me if I was still eating and I laughed and brushed it off but he just frowned at me and squeezed my hand. It was sweet getting to talk to my old mental friend. Ha. He's not mental I really like Joel.

I invited him over to my house to watch some movies because when we were at sunshine institute they never let us watch any movies. They said it was bad for our brains.

Me and Joel stayed up till midnight watching movies on netlfix while cuddling on the couch.

My mom had a work retreat this weekend so she wouldn't be coming home till Monday.

After the last movie was over Joel started tickling me so hard I couldn't breath.

We were both laughing and out of breath. I looked up at Joel's handsome face and started tracing his jaw line with my fingers.

"Joel how come you only kissed me the night before I left? You knew I liked you but you never made a move." I said sleepily.

"Because Janey doll you were too good for me" he said placing kisses down my jaw.

"And now?" I whispered.

"I'll never be good enough for you but I don't care I need you now" Joel said finally kissing me and captivating me in everything that is Joel and Jane.

We somehow made it to my bed and fell asleep tangled up in each other.

I know I know I was just sleeping with Justin last night. But I wasn't in my right mind. Me and Joel have this connection. Justin is my drug dealer but Joel is someone I can trust and tell everything to. It's all so complicated. All I know is that I slept great that night.

I woke up in bed but Joel was gone. Frowning I got up and found a note on my dresser.

Dear Janey doll. Last night was amazing and I'm so glad I got to catch up with you. I'm going to be out of town for the next week but I promise to text and call you. Don't get into any trouble while I'm gone.
P.S. You smell like strawberries.
Sincerely, your friend Joel.

Hmm I wonder where he is going. I guess a week without him will be good for me to figure things out. I just need to try to keep Justin away. But I am running low on my drugs so this will be hard.

**** I am so happy with how this story is turning out!!! Finally you get a glimpse of Joel and Jane.

Comment below if you are team Justin or team Joel.

Thanks for getting this far into my story!!! ******