WRECKED (PERCICO FANFICTION AU)

CHAPTER 1 - PERCY

I stare at the emerald orbs in front of me. I keep my eyes on it; I don't want to look away because I know when I did, it'll be over. I stare at it even though all I see are memories that I'll never ever forget and when the day came that I remembered it, I know pain will strike the inner most of my heart. After a while, I looked away and water from my eyes begins to stream down my face to the grassy ground of this place. I know that he's confused why I'm crying but I can't tell him because... I just can't say it. I can't tell him because I'm not allowed to say it.

I looked back at the confused face in front of me and I hold the edge of his jaw. I hold it with full of love even though pain keeps on breaking my heart.

"You know that I will always love you." I stuttered in the middle of my endless sobs.

"I can feel it. I will always feel your love." He answered as he smiles at me. I didn't smile back at him because that's not what I'm expecting. His answer is supposed to be the opposite of that. He shouldn't feel my love.

I looked down once more. I just can't looked back at him anymore because the guilt, the pain, it kills me. Tears keep on streaming down my face. Why can't he feel the pain I'm feeling? Why can't he feel the remorse I'll be struggling once I finally said the words? Why can't he feel that I want to end everything?

He lifts my head up but I closed my eyes - I don't want to look back at him. "Don't cry, my love. Why cry if you can be strong as I am?"

His question surprised me. I open my eyes. He's already crying.

"Just let me this weak for a moment. I just want to unwind the feeling." He said in between his sobs, "I already can feel it, love. I know that you're going to ask me for a break up. But please, let me love you still at least for ten more minutes. Can I?"

"You don't ask someone if you can love them. Love is expressed freely."

I walk nearer him and kiss him passionately. I pull him closer to me leaving no inch between us. After few minutes, he lets go of the kiss and hugs me. The hug is so tight that it supresses the air to enter my lungs but I just let him, 'cause I'll miss this. More minutes past and his arms are still wrapped around my body. I can't tell him to release me because I want it.

"Let's just be like this for the next ten minutes, can we?" he whispers. I hug him back until I feel that my left shoulder's getting wet - where his head's laying - he's starting to cry again. I can't help myself either, but I'm still trying to supress my tears from falling again, I need to be strong just like what he told me to do.

"We can't be like this for the next ten minutes. Let's watch the stars. Let's watch the Earth rotate too."

He lets go of the hug but I feel the hesitation before he do it. He can't let go of me. This must not be happening but I can't make it not-happen because I need to make it happen.

He lies on the grassy ground as I sit beside him. He puts his hands under his head making it as his pillows. He closes his eyes as I stare at his face - not in the sky - and I see my whole in front of me. How can I break this innocent boy's heart? It feels heavier when the end of his eye lines release tears. I don't want to see him cry again.

"Stop crying. Let's watch the stars dear." I lie beside him and lay my head under my hands just like him. "Let's see how the world rotates."

Even though I'm facing the dark sky, I can still see him in my peripheral view. He's looking at me.

"How can I watch the stars if the only stars I know are the glitters of your eyes?" I face him, "How can I watch the world rotates if my world's spinning out of my life?"