•~Lily's journal~•

Monday 1st of september, 2010

Dear Diary,
It was a sunny day... I woke up and pulled open the curtains and the sun bleared though. Faintly in the distance I see a small but beautiful rainbow🌈 It shone though the clouds and down the long street. The grass was as green as a freshly polished emerald with warm sunflowers🌻 blossoming within it. I knew that today was the day but I wanted to make it as good as possible, even though I knew it would be a hard.
I wanted my mum to see me down here being strong and know that I love her wherever I or she was!
I walked downstairs to hear a slight noise I crept into the kitchen and saw my dad sitting around the dining room table sobbing😭. Now I thought I was the one that wasn't holding myself together but OMG he was really falling apart, I walked in to sit with him just to check if he was okay. He said he was fine but it was pretty clear that he was just crying due to a bright red face and tears (sometimes I think he can be really stupid) I grabbed a fresh tissue and placed it on the table... straight away he picked it up and wiped his tears away.
OH GOD!!! It was already 11:00 o clock I need to get ready we need to leave at 12:00 and I still needed to have breakfast, have a shower, get changed and do my make-up. I rushed upstairs and quickly done all my main jobs to get ready. I had brought a brand new dress for the funeral especially and it was black and Lacey and came with black heals and a black hat with a bow on the front of it. It was really pretty💗! Anyway I had left by 12:00 and was on the way to kings church which is were the funeral is held.
The funeral was awkward because no one new when to speak or what to say. Her coffin was wooden just like she had wished for and I had to read a speech that I had prepared earlier. The speech read... "Really a funeral is not for the dead but for the living, it's a gathering to remember the loved ones".
Once I got home I went up into my room and let all my tears go. I wanted to cry the hole way though the ceremony but I couldn't I had to stay strong for my dad and my MUM! As I watched the coffin lid close I said good by and as that happens I felt a missing part in my heart and a tear sliver down my cheek. Other that that though I managed to hold in my tears.