Just Memorable Moments...

Another day...

Hm...I still remember stuff...it's usually with Kaine and Maria would tag along with me everywhere I went..its okay she is afterall my bff...January 15,2016 at the public library I decided to again to go to another Super Smash Bros Tournament and watch my friends play...it was a week after I bleached my hair and tied dyeing it blue but turned green..cries but oh well lol it's okay....and I got dressed and stuff and wore make up and have scene hair like I usually have ...Maria messages me telling me that Kane was over there and I was so happy that I can be able to see him again...It was snowing but I went anyway.I went down into the room and saw Maria in the library as well as Lucas, Israel Her brother, my friend Liz ,Francisco, JR, Silvester,Tiana, Romo and Kaine...I was happy to see them all....and well I just sat on the floor and Kaine came up to me and patted my head and said "hey how are you" and I said "good". "Anything new?" I said "not really it's usually boring at home" and well he left to go and play and just sat the whole time on the floor...I would look at him but when I do I feel like he will catch me staring....it happened a couple times...oops....and my friend Alex came up to me and started talking and it was cool until he had to play as well....hmmm....I was so bored...but it was fine....Maria took my glasses away from me and she knows I was really blind that I just stay in one spot and don't move at all....Romo came up to me and starts asking what's wrong and I said nothing I'm just really blind and can't see...next thing you know someone picks me up from behind and I start to struggle but mainly cuz I'm scared of heights and I was blind so I didn't know what was going on xc....and as I was put down he looked at me and said are you okay and I said yeah I'm fine...Maria gives me back my glasses and I look at him straight in the eye and I'm pretty sure I start to blush hard...and he walked away again with Romo as Maria was talking to me and Alex came....Maria and him started to see who was better at carrying me and I was struggling a lot because of my fear of heights...and I then ran out of the room after Maria said she was going to show Kaine my modeling pictures for her class assignment...It was embarrassing cuz I'm not the best at it and some were weird pics of me...
I told Alex about my past and how I had feelings for Kaine and about my last relationship. ...and Kaine came out of the room and I asked "where are you going?" he said "to McDonald's to get food 38th JR and Silvester" and I said oh okay.and I hugged him and he said "hey I'll be back c:" and I said "I know but I still want a hug..." and when he left I went into the kids section with Maria and Alex went back inside to continue playing and I just watched Coryeon play with another guy chess and Maria was watching too...and then I just started to play on my phone and sat on a different table...when he came back he sat where I was and states eating his fries..he tried to feed me and I said nope I'll get fat.and I avoided it....and he said if I was okay and I said yeah I'm fine...he told me that every time he sees me I look sad...he asked me if I wanted to go back in the room and we did....I standed right next to him so I felt safe and okay...I say on the floor and so did he and I felt sleepy for a bit...and I told him too....next thing you know he puts my head on his shoulder and let's me sleep for a little while...and when I wake up to a phone call my mom tells me to come home.I tell Kaine I had to leave and said to me...."can I ask you a question?"...I said "sure..." ...."do you like me?"....I froze and I looked down scare and nervous..at the point I was about to cry because I was scared he found out and I didn't want to end up getting hurt like before...being called a stalker ,a creeper, a freak, weirdo,etc. I didn't give him an answer...and he said "it's okay you don't have to tell me"...I felt really bad because I wanted to be honest and tell him already but my fear was what holded me back from telling him....I dodnt want to get hurt but I wasn't ready to confess yet....my mom called again. Telling me she was outside the library waiting...okay I tell her
...I said to Kaine I had to go now....And he said alright and I hugged him....and left the library rushing while Maria is following me and she says bye too....I felt so weird because nobody has ever asked me that and didn't expect him to ask me as well....but oh well what's done is some for now....i wanted to tell him another time but I just wasn't ready so I decided to tell him on the very last super smash bros event or anime club... I promised myself I would tell him face to face because it's better that way than by text...it may be scary but I wanna do this...and soon I will...
It's funny how I still remember good moments like these lol.. cries... c':