Needed (Cake Hoodings)

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Calum's pov

Seeing luke with that girl yesterday made me so hard to fell asleep. I'm not crying anymore but my heart still breaking. I'm glad aly finally meet her mom but no for luke. I'm not glad she came for luke. Luke wasn't mine but losing him broke my heart. I want him to be happy but I want him to be happy with me. It sounds selfish I know. I regret that I left him 4 years ago. I regret that I thought his mom wouldn't accept him being gay because the truth is she would.

I heard a knock on the door and my dad stood to open it because he thought than I'm sad and broken so I just want to sit on the couch all day.

"Calum, someone's here." My father came over me.

"Is that luke?" I really hope that's luke. Please say that's luke dad.

"I know you miss him, just go he's waiting." He chuckled.

"Dad, you're not telling me. You know that guy?" I don't think that is luke now.

"I do, he has a daughter. A cute daughter." My eyes sparkling.

"You mean thats luke right?" I ask him to make sure.

"You could say that." He chuckled again.

I look at him and he just looked down at his feet. But when he's about to looked at me, well I look away.

"Cal, I know that you don't want to see me right now. But I just wanna say sorry. I'm a fucking liar. I just wanna tell you that I did that because I don't want to lose you. Thought of losing you just driving me crazy. I need you. I need your love for me and aly. I know that you need a space. I know you're really disappointed of what I just done. Once again I'm sorry. You know how much I need you in my life. And if one day, or week, month, or even year you realize that you need me as much as I need you just call me. I would come running. So uh see ya soon." He turned his back really slowly. He probably thought I will stop him, because yes I hug him from behind.