Forever and Always - BoyxBoy -Complete-

13

Jake

"Jacob..."

No, I don't want to look back. I know if I do that, it will reveal the true identity of the person behind me. I just wanted to think that it really is Daniel at the moment. That sweet, caressing and soothing voice that comes out of his mouth, which was even more exciting if ever he wanted to tease me, the hot breath blowing through my ear that is even more tempting to share with him. It's like smoldering my ear with true pleasure, the only thing that lacks is a kiss or even a nip on my neck, and sometimes leaving a hickey, marking me as his own. He's always better at doing things like that, not only he tells me as if he cares for me, which he really does but also to give me more pleasure that what I could have ever thought. I can only imagine his sly wolfish smirk plastered to his face.

That's what I like the most about him. It's his stupid, idiotic, but cramped and crude personality that gives him the signature and wide grin as if he's already got what he wanted to have. No one can ever resist his smile, not to mention, almost everyone always takes note of his ever smiling and pleasing personality that turns his age from 17 down to 10 years old. He is always getting this bad suspicion whenever we wanted to watch movies that are rated PG-13 and somehow above. Naturally, he would be fuming with rage with that kind of statement, yet he totally loves it! Weird for him and his reaction but he tells me all the time that it's his trick.

No, this isn't really Daniel, but I still wanted to believe it is him. I really want to convince myself that he is the one right here now and teasing me and messing with me and a lot of things he wants to do. I can't just ignore that idea of him being here at this very moment. Who knows, maybe he's waken up all of a sudden and went up here to see me( but I know that would be pretty much ridiculous due to the hospital's regulations, procedures and other stuff before he could be discharged which makes it rather impossible.) Am I really losing hope now? Am I just ready to give him up and move on? Is this what he really wanted to do? But it still doesn't make any sense to me, it just doesn't. What's the whole point of saving him in the first place, if I would surrender in the end? It's becoming pointless. This is becoming pointless. But, I still wanted to know who this person behind me is and I don't give a damn whoever could this messing around with me, even if it's Daniel or not.

"Hmmm... Daniel? Is that you? I was waiting for you the whole time and I missed you so much. A lot of things had happened while you were asleep, well not that much but they had me worried about you.." I slowly turned around, twisted my body with a smug smile on my face, revealing the identity of the unknown person. To my disappointment, it wasn't Daniel, nor I do not know who this is. "Oh, I thought you were Daniel. Sorry, you must be in the wrong place. If you don't have any business with me, please leave me in peace and I apologize for my stupid and not so good today. I am in no mood to socialize or interact with other people now besides my boyfriend. So please, I ask you. Go. "

The guy chuckled under his breath, still not budging from his posture. He doesn't show any disturbance in his face nor anything that bothers him. "Oh come on! Jacob? How could you ever forgotten about me? I guess I should have figured it out already when I left. I asked Daniel to make you forget about me anyways and by the looks of it, he has succeeded. I must congratulate him for that. Where is he anyways? I haven't seen him around." He looks at both sides of the room like he really is looking for Dan. "Uhm, how do you know Daniel and what do you mean he succeeded? Is there something I should know about?" I asked him innocently (it is the truth anyways, I haven't really any idea what he's talking about.) "And to be frank with you, 'SIR', I have no idea of what you mean by those." I said in an arrogant manner.

He raised an eyebrow crossed his arms on his waist and taps one of his feet. "You really have forgotten me didn't you? So maybe a few refreshment of some things we have done before. I was your first kiss, the first I love you was on me, first date. So does that make any sense to you at all?" I continued to stare at him puzzled of what he's gibbering about? "Woah, don't you make such false claims at all. As far as I can clearly remember, it was Daniel who is my first kiss; yours might just be a peck or a smack on your cheeks. And the first I love you, on you? Oh, that is truly ridiculous. I had haven't said those words to anyone aside Dan. So don't make any false claims or anything that makes you tell me that we were once together. I haven't got any idea of who you are at all."

He laughs like he was trying to be more sarcastic in what he does. "Oh, yes. I remember now, it wasn't really a kiss at all. Thanks for reminding me about that one and the I love you, well it wasn't directly spoken to me but I saw it on a page of your notebook before. You used to scribble a lot of random stuff behind your personal notes about the things you like and hate about. And did you know you wrote it there that you loved me? Loved is the proper thing to use since you love Daniel now."

"I said get lost! Don't you understand? I need some time alone!" Great. I don't even know now, but I suppose it's alright to let go of my tears I've been holding back. I can't take this heavy burden anymore. It kills me. It just fucking kills me. I shouldn't be crying in front of a stranger, but since I left the cemetery a few days ago, I told to myself that I won't be crying for Daniel, that I'd have to be happy to anybody, not trying to show and feeling that I'm hurt at all. But even I do believe about Daniel's recovery before, somehow, I start to doubt about it. It seems to be that I'm just fooling myself around with such a joke, a make believe story of Daniel waking up from his comatose. This isn't me at all. No one could comfort me in this grief of mine.

"Oh Jacob, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have forced you into something that you'd get lost to. But at least try to recall me. I know deep within you you'd remember a part of me, that's still sleeping inside. I am still a part of you. I'm not asking you to love me back again and I'm not here to make you do it. I do have a promise to myself that if you two would be together, then I will never ever get in your way. I know Daniel will love you. Argh wait, this is getting awkward and rather confusing. Disregard what I just said. I just came here because I am going to be an exchange student here, nothing else. I should have gone straight to my point and not making it more confusing to you. Well, let me introduce myself to you again. I'm Paul, Paul Reverie. I hope this would shed light to you." He stood beside me and gave me a hug.

"Paul?" I said like toddler crying for his mother. I do remember this name. I don't know but if I'm correct, he used to be or still one of Daniel's best friends. I do recall a kid named Paul before that I have a crush on when I we were still kids. It sounds familiar that all of a sudden, flashbacks of the past starts to fill my mind with those memories I have kept in stash for so long, with Daniel helping me to keep them. "Paul Reverie? Are you really Paul Reverie?" He tried controlling his laughter though I can see through his eyes that he's holding it well.

"Yes you dumb ass idiot. Who else could this be? And I do apologize for having you trouble of guessing who am I. Well I must say, Daniel is really a good frie-" I cut him off and pulled him, kissing his lips and silenced him with it. Paul, I always wanted to do this to him. Yes, I remember him now. I can clearly remember who he was to my life. I'd fallen for this person before. He was my first crush. He has these same blue eyes as Daniel. He was always with Daniel, and they can never ever be separated from one another. They're like brothers. "Stop it you moron!" He pulled away, slapping me back at the same time. "I- I'm sorry, I back myself up from doing it. My body became impulsive as I recalled you, and well I got excited as well. I missed you so much, Paul... I missed you."

Knocking my forehead with two of his fingers, he walked away, started pacing back and forth and studied me for a while. "Hey, it's okay. Don't sweat it and I missed you too. Let's just act like this never happened okay?" I gave him a nod in my agreement to his statement and pulled myself together again.