The Lost Boy

Trapped-I

Amanda's P.O.V

It was a cold friday night, I was just sitting on the couch enjoying some chips when he came home.

James is my boyfriend although sometimes I wish he wasn't, He was so sweet and kind, that was why I loved him.

Recently he had changed, James always smiled-now he frowns, he laughed-now he yells and he kissed me- now he hits me...

He used to run his fingers through my hair and admire its auburn colour. He would tell me my eyes were the most beautiful things he'd ever seen in his life, even though they were just grey.

I loved him so much I never wanted him to leave me-now when he goes to work I feel releaved.

I've tried to leave him, it was too hard he'd scare me.

He stepped through the door closing it loudly behind him. He started pacing around the house for a bit, as if he was inspecting the place.

I decided to start some small talk.

"How was your day at work?" I asked him, he looked at me, a bit suprised that I had just comunicated with another being. It was quite funny seeing him look like that, I tried not to smile as he might kick off.

"Well ahh... it was fine thanks" he replied as he kicked off his shoes.

I found it quite intimidating to talk to James like this as one wrong word or move could end in bruises for me.

He made his way upstairs probably to get into his Pj's, I decided to do the same.

I got off the couch and heaved myself up the stairs.

I walked into my room and started to change. I put on my favourite Pyjamas and went back downstairs to resume my spot on the couch.

As I was siting there James came over and sat next to me, at first I was a bit suprised and uncomfortable but then I built up the courage to talk.

"You wanna watch a movie?" I asked him, it was friday night after all.

"No I ummm... I actually w.. wanted to tell you something." He replied his voice was shaky I was genuinely concerned about him.

"Ok..." I said trying to sound sympathetic.

He turned to face me and to my dismay he started to hug me.

I couldn't help but grab him back I was so suprised and intrigued as to what he wanted to tell me but also very nervous.

He tilted his head to the side so his mouth was practically touching my ear "I'm sorry" he said his voice was very soft he was holding back tears I could tell but what had he done now? I was worried James had never done this before.

He moved his head so that our foreheads touched "I... I lost my job..." He said, he couldn't hold back the tears any longer I could see them pour down his cheeks.

Naturally I did the same, James was the only way we were still able to live in this house, his job basically kept us alive.

I felt bad for James he absolutly loved his job he was an engineer he told me he had dreamed of becoming one scince he was a kid.

I was sad but I was also angry James was the reason I had lost my job too.

We were just sitting there on the couch together sobbing. He pulled me closer to him.

I was quite weary as he had been so mean for the last few days and now all the sudden he's a complete mess.

I decided comfort him in the hopes that he would calm down, I moved my self over so I was practically siting in his lap.

He looked up at me and tightened his embrace, he turned his head and kissed me on the cheek.

I smiled it had been a while scince he had shown me some effection.

He seemed to pickup on that and this time kissed me on the lips.

It was the greatest thing in my life.

"Amanda?" He started "How did you get over losing your job?" I was suprised at his question "You know how I really liked my job and you really liked your's, how did you get over it?" He looked like he needed some help but I really didn't know how I could help him.

"Well I'm not sure... I guess it just left my mind" I said he looked confused "I mean, it took a while and all, you know as a kid I had always dreamed of working in the fashion industry" he nodded "So it was pretty hard loosing that and contact with some friends you know Daniela and that."

James sympathetic face suddenly made a dramatic change he looked so angry.

I just rememberd James hated Daniela, infact hated would be a kinder word, James completely despised Daniela.

When James had his mood swings and got agressive I had not guts to stand up for myself, But Daniela did and boy did that piss off James.

She had even thretened to call the cops on him once.

"Amanda" he said tensly he pulled away from our cuddle "I.. I'm sorry James I didn't mean" I started to get panicked I was afraid of what he might do "Get off your ASS and make me a drink" I immediately got up to go, I was terrified.

As I was heading into the kitchen I couldn't stop looking over my shoulder, James spotted me "AMANDA" he yelled "Get on with it!"

James didn't like when I did anything that wasn't exactly what he told me to do.

I was so tired. Of working for him, of being with him. I wanted it to end. I couldn't leave I couldn't stay I was lost in a sea of confusion, anger and fear.

I missed my Mum, her heart warming smile her soft loving touch, I havent talked to her in two years. James doesn't like her.

Things had to change, I knew exactly what, but the problem was how.