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Antonette,

Hon, it was a long time ago since I had visited you. How are you?We're okay here. I missed you so much though it was already 7 years ago since you've died.

You know what? I think I'm ready to let you go, that's your last wish, right? Thanks to Faith  I finally get over you. And we are getting married this December, I came here to have this closure- a closure between you and me.

Ugh, this is really hard to tell you this. I still love you, But when she's beside me I feel complete again, I feel like a new born infant that was very fragile. I met her on a bus when I was going home from work,she's sitting alone with an annoyed face. I didn't bring my car because it's out of gas and I had forgotten to fill it. I sat beside her and start talking nonsense, I did that because I remembered you from her. I learned that she's living next to our house with her auntie. She's a lovely person, a caring one and she loved me even though we had children . She filled the hole you made . She take me for who I am like you did, don't get me wrong I'm not comparing you to her. She helped me to stand from being down, she support me every single day. She filled the emptiness of my heart, she caught my broken heart and fixed it with her love.

Now, I'm finally back, ready to move forward and hoping that everything would be fine.

Miko is a college student now, he's taking engineering. Mark and Mhe Ann are both high school students. They already know about FAITH and they accept her as a second mother. But that doesn't mean that we are forgetting about you. I can't- we can't forget you, you know that you'll always be their first mother,their first teacher and their first friend.

Those times that before we are only college students, ignoring each other because we are always in quarrel. Thinking who's the jerk and who's the bitch, I can't help but to smile with that memories. And that is the reason why we fell to each other, I am deeply in love with you that time. When we settle down after our graduation, we had Miko as our child. Then Mark and Mhe Ann came in our life too. Those happy moments we've shared, those problems we have solved. And all those sacrifices for our children, that will be  written in my mind and no one can erase it. Your memory as my wife is here, in my heart.

Don't worry, I'm still the McRoy you used to love, the father of our children, and the man who loves you for as a big treasure. I won't change for you and for Faith.

So,  I guess this is where 'it' begins right?  A new chapter for our lives and for our hearts.

But this is the thing that you have to remember, YOU will always be my HON and the owner of that special space in my heart.  I LOVE YOU I WILL ALWAYS BE.

                  

    "MAY YOU REST IN PEACE 
          ANTONETTE CARTER,                    
                   my wife."

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