15/1/16
Dear Nash,
If you're reading this , iam crazy enough. Iam strong enough.
I 'meet you' from a video , 2 years ago .
And there iam standing.
You saved me. You really did. Iam thankful . I really am.
I was thinking of committing a suicide last month .... but I didn't. I didn't because I know you're proud I got through this. I didn't because I didn't want my loss make you sad. You are one of the 4 reasons Iam alive at the moment. And Iam happy. Iam happy that this letter is not a death note for some weak fangirl ,iam not a weak fangirl who didn't make it..I made it.
Forever yours
Y/N
10/2/16
Dear Nash ,
You didn't answer to my last letter. I hope you do in this one.
Today Iam sad . My dog died some hours ago. I cutted. I feel stupid , but I did. Yeah.
I was so blurred. Sorry I disappointed u.
Forever yours
Y/N
18/3/16.
Dear Nash,
Yesterday was my boyfriend's birthday . Well to be exact , ex boyfriend.
We flighted badly. It was all his fault. He told me I should give up on sending you letters & I tried to explain that this was like giving up loving you. Impossible. He didn't understand. We ended breaking up.
Iam sad. Are you even reading this ?:)
Forever yours
Y/N
13/4/16
Dear Nash,
I don't even think you're reading this anymore. Today was my birthday anyways.
It was awful. Not kidding. Mum and dad fighted again. I found out that I was just a mistake for them. I couldn't take it any longer. I cutted again. I know. In my first letter I promised Iam fine. But things started getting so bad.
Why am I writing anymore ? You don't even care:)
Forever yours
Y/N
23/5/16
Dear Nash,
This the longer letter I've ever wrote in my entire life & it's the last one I'll be sending you...
I hope you're smiling. Today , it's a perfect day. It's the day I have been waiting for the last few months. Today Iam gonna die. No, iam not some kinda of magician who can predict the future. Iam just gonna fall in front of a car today. I'll give an end to this tragic play I live in.
I know what you're thinking. In her first letter she said "Iam not a weak fangirl" Well, Iam. Happy Now? Iam not strong enough to take it anymore. I can't take it anymore. I can't do it , I don't know how to do it , I don't wanna do it. So today Iam telling you goodbye savior .
Enough about me though. I heard you've got a girlfriend. Finally 😍💪 she's so cute. And together , you and her , are even cuter. Still , I hope you told her you're marrying me , or well , you would , if I was alive. By the time this letter will be in your hands , I'll be long gone. Please , don't be sad. You know I love your eyes. I was in love with you . That's why I chose you over everyone. My boyfriend, friends & family. And to be honest , that's what killed me in the end. No, my suicide wasn't your fault. I died because of my choice. And still , iam proud I chose you.
You disappointed me in your last Q&A. Your reaction about the new Magcon wasn't the best. Okay , in some point , I agree. But you always say that everyone is worth a chance. So , please , give those guys a chance , for me.
I love you Hamilton Nash Grier. I really do . Hope you love me too. Are you proud of me ? I know , iam weak. But please. Don't judge me. I know I broke my promise but believe me , it's better this way.
Forever yours
Y/N
*Nash ,all those months, couldn't take the letters ,because he was on tour , he came back a week after the last letter was send. Y/N did died. As she planted . Nash read all the letters. He was so sad. He would have save her. If he wasn't on tour. He was a ruin. He decided to answer to her &he prayed she'll somehow read his answer.*
Dear Y/N ,
Iam so proud of you. You were a real fighter. Iam also sad , cause I know you could make it , I really hope I could have helped you. It doesn't matter anymore . You're gone.
Okay , well... to the main subject now.
Will you marry me ?
I mean , you said you're marrying me so I assume the answer is yes. If it is , iam the happiest man in the universe babygirl.
Yeah. Taylor knows Iam marrying you.
She's okay with it , but I think she's kinda jealous. She knows we will be lit together . You and me ,or , at least , we could be .
I can't accept the fact that you're gone
Why Y/N? Why ? You didn't wait for me to come back . I would save you. I know I would. And you thought I didn't care. That kills me. It kills me that you died , believing i don't care. I love you Y/N. I really do. I hope you know.
Forever yours
Nash
*Nash left the letter to get grave. One day , he was walking with Taylor to the grocery store. He stood for a while , looked up in the sky. The clouds, were "saying " : I do wanna marry you Nash. He told Taylor a few days later. She thought he had gone nuts. And she was maybe right. Nash never got married. He only bought a wedding ring with "Y/N" in it. All his life ,was talking for her ,like they had lived together. Like they shared something special , humanmind can't understand. They may did , in some other life, in some other time, when life was worth living , for both of them
