Oh look at the time, its half past eleven, her so called "Bedtime".Normal kids of her age would be hugging their bolsters in the middle of a much wanted fantasy dream. But.. then there's Emmy. Being born in a broken family, Emmy could not have exactly been categorised under 'normal'. This 14 year old led a normal life with great friends. Yes, I bet you're lost in the hay. HOW does loneliness relate to this?
"Nobody cares about me. I'm all alone. All alone in this world' sobs Emmy. What had caused her to feel all these? Like any other teenager, Emmy was quite a cheery bubble in school. Emmy sits on her bed staring out the window. '' Oh, what had I done to be this lonely. All i've ever longed is to be loved" Well, it's time to break the suspense. Emmy wasn't all normal. She was born with an evil void inside of her. Almost every other night, she gets these weird horrendous dreams about things that do happen in the future. Like her grandma, Emmy is categorised as the hyper-sensitive supernatural. Not long after that sigh, Emmy slept off.
-Fellow readers, that was just an intro. It's time, I Emmy Liane Woods, explicitly tell you, the story of my cursed loneliness-
I have often felt alone among a crowd of people. Even at school,
"Emmy! Emmy! Hello? Are you alive or what?"yelled out Jee Wern, one of my best friends. She was the closest person to me in school. You'd often catch me gazing at absolutely NOTHING
"Whopss. Sorry. What did I miss?"I replied in a much startled manner. "I dont know Em. You don't seem normal lately. Is everything fine? Home and stuff"
Yeah, pretty much everyone could guess that such a disturbed soul could be only derived from a broken home. Well, mine wasn't exactly totally in two parts but I could say it was going there. Just these little things that add up to my loneliness. Well, things weren't always like this. I was quite a cheerful child when i was in primary school. I mingled with almost everyone and anyone! As I grew, I realised I wasn't a normal child. I started to have weird screaming dreams and i thought it was just a nightmare and it was normal for kids to get them. Turns out, the nightmare of my life had yet to begun
A rare flower only blooms in the oddest hours. I met a wondeful boy name Leaston. We got super close but we really appreciated our brother-sister relationship. I shared with him everything and he was always there for me. I had so much fun, loneliness just wasn't in my dictionary anymore. My friends saw the joy in me and the light had ignite once again. It was amazing just being in his presence and having him as company. Our mothers' met and I thought it was a wonderful start for me.
But hey, didn't I mention earlier that my nightmare had YET to begin. Things got pretty messed up along the road. Our relationship didn't break but I could feel it slipping of my hands. As much as both of us always said we'd never let go, things do change. We still spoke after that but things weren't the same anymore. I could feel the darkness again. Slowly my life was once again being obscured by fog. Happiness had been slowing disappearing from my sight. I lost everything. I was torn a part and thrown back into loneliness. I cried at night for months and months til i finally realised. I deemed myself as a Cursed Lonely girl
There's no escape from this nightmare. I was always lonely because of my never ending attitude of ober thinking. my so called 'gift'of seeing the future and last but not least, the wounded heart that couldn't have been mended. I did thing we had something in special. I thought we were gonna live our lives to the fullest.
.....but really, nothing works out for the girl labelled as a Cursed Lonely Child
PART II
Soon after a few days passed, I grew even more depressed. Things between Leaston and I seemed to be getting worst. I thought time would take care of it and heal everything for me,but nothing was happening. I couldn't feel the love I once felt. Nothing was ever the same. Everytime he held my hands and dragged me close to him, it felt absolutely normal. It was almost as if my heart was turning into stone. I felt so neutral about it and just couldn't feel the love anymore. Leaston said things between us were just fine. "You just aren't fine. I want back the girl I fell in love with" I gazed as he walked by me in disappointment. I couldn't conceal myself in this relationship any longer. I am not the type to put up a happy and cheerful face despite being broken and crushed inside. Leaston had so many things going on in his life. His friends planned so many activities and they went for camps, picnics, movies and so many more. He had something up almost everyday. It felt as if I was being neglected..Or was I just convincing myself that I was being neglected. I couldn't even reply his messages properly. Often I felt angry when I saw his name appearing in my notifications. I love him but is it true love? Am I being used? Questions after questions running through my head. Pouncing from each corner of my head to the other. I felt like my attention from Leaston was being divided. Things were just so messed up. I was losing all happiness and I only had very minimal ones. What oh what has become of me? I'm breaking. Something sharp is penetrating through my heart. I was dying.
I had one friend though. Who always stood by me whenever I felt alone in this world. Who puts a smile on my fast when my tear glands have been ripped apart. Meet, my only friend, my violin. Every night before crying myself to sleep, I play it in hopes The Almighty would hear my voice and cries. Just this one thing made me happy when the whole world seemed to fall apart.
School was the least favourite part of my life. It was devastating to learn that there are a million people in this world. Why can't even one understand me? I had absolutely nothing left in school anymore. It felt so much like a mortuary. I just couldn't wait to graduate and get going. Much to my despair, school was just about to reopen sooner than I expected. As a kid, I loved holidays. Just I was different. I considered myself as much of a loner. I had friends! Oh so many of them. But why was I alone?
