I wish you really knew me
You know...the me inside of me
All u see is my bright colourful shell
But inside im trapped in a deep dark spell
I spell that I can't escape
And now it looks like its to late
I cut to be real
But all I wanted is to feel
I starve myself so u see
I wish I wasn't me
I'm sick of crying
And tired of trying
Yeah I'm smiling
But inside I'm dieing
I'm suffering a painful death
And all I want to do is take my last breath
I want to be perfect so God dam bad
But in the end I just turn up sad
Sad because my reflection
And truly starve for perfection
I pray to god every night
Wishing I can see the prettiest sight
The sight of me closing my eyes and saying my goodbyes
I think earth is truly hell
And I love to draw with black pastel
It explained my mood
And I'm totally screwed
I really do hate my life
I feel like a lowlife
My hearts being constantly stabbed by a knife
This is truly how I feel
And don't doubt for a second because this is REAL.
