From the streets

Chapter 20

August pov

Mad wasnt even the word right na. Come at me anytime just not when my girl around.

We were at the warehouse discussin. "August" my boss called me. I turned to look at him.

"Sup"

"Check ya girl then find yourself in my office." I ran off to find my girl. I knew she'd be cryin her eyes out.

I left her with dennis so she could be somewhat comfortable.

I hear mumblin as i got close to where she was. "...as children of God we are destined for greatness , yall have soo much potential ..please dont let that go to waste" you'd think she would be cryin her eyes out but here she is preachin to the guys.

They all sat in a circle surrounding her.

"All i know is how to be a drug dealer i aint got no potential M" Travis said and some of the guys agreed.

"What ? Ofcourse you got potential.. you could be in marketing or something thats kind of they same thing as drug dealin..just done a lil different with no drug" i could see some of them lookin convinced.

"If you're a computer hacker of computer geek ...make your own games new electronics.. yall see where i comin from God didnt make any of us without a talent" i cant believe i found this girl. Hell she mine. I mean she dont deserve a man like me but im too selfish to let her go.

"How about yall come church with me sunday?"
They were hesitant but still agreed. Proud of my girl.

"But how can you see the good out of what happened tonight?"

"Well im alive aint i ? Thats what im thankin god for right now not only that but i get to meet yall" the fellas coo'ed as i laughed.

"Damn.. you makin me get in touch with my feminine side" Dennis feigned sadness .

"Eyy can i holla at my girl fo a second"
"Yea man" they mumbled but stayed right there not moving.

"In private" they all mumbled in annoyance as they walked away.

She was actually handlin this a lil better ..which was kind of scary.
"Mama you aight?" She nodded with a frown. Her eyes were becoming glassy and filled with tears.

"I was soo scared.. i thought i lost you.." i pulled her in for a hug. "Nah ma i'm right here i been through this before it-"

"You say it as if your proud" she said sternly.

"Well yea i done this plenty times before-"

"Its not about that! You could've been hurt ! What if someone shot you ?! Huh?! Have you ever thought about how it would affect me .. your momma ? Or better yet your sister and your nieces?!"

"Okay i'll watch out next time"
She gave me that look. Like she wanted to strangle me.

"Aug-ughhh! Am serious!"

"So am i!"

"August this is a life or death game your playin . Once your out your out there is no resurrecting .. this game doesnt have 3 lives it only has one.. i cant let you risk that" she was cryin now. But she dont understand i need this money. This is what payin them bills that we behind on.

"I cant do that ma.. i need the money"

"Okay fine get a job .. a part time job ..i'll give you half of my allowance , lemme help just dont continue in this gang you still have your whole life ahead of you" i held her hands and kissed them.
I kissed her forehead too.

"I'm sorry ma i cant..i just cant" i wish i could but i need instant money. Lord knows how behind we are on rent. Cha here with the kids .. thats extra money cause the gotta eat. She pulled her hands out of mines and shook her head.

"Okay then i dont think we should get any closer-" o cut her off

"See the same shit! This is why i didnt wanna tell you nothing .. is you too high class to deal with a drug dealer? Is you ashamed of what people gone think?!-"

"The only thing i'm afraid of August is losin you!" She yelled through her tears. The whole place went silent . I never seen her angry.

"Oh god.. the only thing i'm scared of is losin you .. i dont wanna get closer and fall harder if you just gone let your life slide..if you gone just leave..."

"A close friend of mine died doin the same thing..he thought it was the only way .. he didnt go to school nor did he have a family .. so i understood how hard it must have been for him...but you ..you go to school.. you have a family..you have potential ..but you choose to waste yuh life...i love you but .. i dont want to fall harder knowin that sooner or later you goin leave me" unknowingly tears were runnin down my face. Losin mya would be the worst. This was hella hard.

"Drop me home" i nodded
"Give me a sec i gotta talk to my boss"
She nodded. I dried my eyes real quick makin sure that nobody noticed that i was crying.

I knocked on his door and stepped in. He looked like he could see right through me. He sighed "listen Aug I love you man and I want the best for yuh , I don't want you to fall in the same footsteps like your brother man"