Unrequited Love

You were a vaguely familiar face in a foreign classroom.

First I loved how you eloquently talked.

Your sense of humor amused me

You were a puzzle that intrigued me

Then I was relieved when I found someone that shared a few of my ideals.

I wondered how I could have finally found someone who understood me better than anyone else could.

I discovered a galaxy when I was only expecting star.

Can I love you?

I was late for most things in my life and you were no exception.

I love you

You love her

I lied and swore to myself that it was an innocent and passing curiosity.

That it wasn't a betrayal on my part.

I happily dug  my own grave while thinking

everything would be fine

as long as I had you

That I would be satisfied to remain on the sidelines cheering your love on as long as we were friends

An innocent mistake

turned into temptation that I could not resist

A temptation that soon turned into guilt

that turned into worry

that became the instrument of my undoing

Everything would be fine  as long as I had you

and then I didn't