So today was pretty fun. I went out to lunch and went shopping with my grandma and my aunt. My good friend from Baltimore, Maryland texted me and I was so happy because I had missed him. Anyway, I decided to text my "guy friend" to see if he wanted to go see Purge: Election Day with me Saturday night. (Our relationship is very complicated. We've been knowing each other for seven years and we dated on and off when we were younger. But now Idk what we are so I'm just gonna refer to him as my guy friend). Anyway, at first he said he didn't know what he had to do Saturday night. But once I told him what I wanted, he was like he didn't think that was a good idea because he heard that my dad doesn't like him. I thought he was just kidding at first but then I realized, he was dead serious. He said he had "ears" everywhere and they told him that my dad didn't like him. So, now he thinks we should stop talking to each other. Like, just flat out stop talking period. I told him that my dad acted mean towards everyone, especially my guy friends. That's just a dad thing. Every dad has done that before if they have a daughter. It's just normal! Then I told him that even if my dad didn't like him, it doesn't matter. He ain't gotta live with him or be around him. As long as he's keeping me happy, that's all that matters! I just don't understand. None of that matters! Idk why he's doing this. I've known him since I was in fifth grade, and like I said, that's seven years we have together! At the very beginning, everything was crazy but we worked through it. Even though I was ten and he was eleven. We still worked it out! Yea, we stopped for a while but when we saw each other and got back together, we still acted as if nothing had ever happened. So what's so different now? Why does he just wanna stop? Whoever his "ears" are are liars and unhappy people. At least I know why he never texted me back... All of this is just bull. After all this time, all these feelings coming back, it just ends. As quick as it started, it's over. As I stated in my previous entry, life is crazy. It's so freaking crazy, I don't even know how to put it in words to explain my feelings. Now I have to go back to convincing myself I don't need him and pretending that none of this ever happened and none of it ever mattered to me. Life is just crazy...
