Just A Thing (Seme Male Reader x Grimmjow) {Bleach}

chapter 18

reader pov

"is he gone yet?" i had walked into the building past the secretary. i had asked her earlier to lock the door when i came in tonight. i was an excellent actor. i even took a few classes in college. when ichigo had suggested i do something to throw him off, i couldn't really think of anything. he suggested a romantic date. i couldn't think of anything we could do for a romantic date. when i talked to him just before lunch he just suggested i do something more simple. just ignore him. i took the idea in stride. the receptionist nodded. "he just walked back to his car," i sighed. it was a lot to ignore him. he wasn't easy to ignore but i pulled it off. i walked back to the door to see what he was doing. he was smelling the bag i left for him. i really wanted it to be believable so i asked renji to clear out all traces of him from my condo. i really didn't want to tell him where my spare key was but i needed this to seem real. he told me he put it in the passenger seat of his car. the scene was set. i looked closer. he was sobbing. my heart cringed. was it a such thing as too good acting? i didn't think so. i intended to watch him till he pulled off. he just sat there. he leaned over and pulled something out the side of his car. i sighed. maybe he had like one of my shirts or something. i looked closer a he put it in sight. there was the glare of something silver. SHIT!!!....i ran out to his car as fast as i could. i got to the driver side and opened the door. he was giggling hysterically as he sobbed. i reached for the gun. i had started to pull it from his head when there was a blinding flash of light. i shook off my daze. i looked at him. it didn't go through his head but there was a huge gash on his temple. i was able to divert the bullet enough. there was blood everywhere. he went limp. i panicked. i tossed the gun to other side of the car and grabbed him. he wouldn't walk. i carried him bridal style back to the building. i pushed the door open and laid him on the sofa in the lobby. i straddled him on the sofa. there was a loud gasp. "CALL 911!!!" i screamed as i pulled off my shirt. i balled it up and pressed it against his head. i couldn't stop the bleeding. i was barely able to slow it. i performed cpr. i pressed his chest rhythmically. he stopped breathing. i kept pressing on his chest. i kissed him, trying to breath air into his lungs. he didn't come back. i kept pumping. nothing. i leaned my head down to his chest. his heart beat was slowing down. i kept pressing. it slowed to a stop. i felt the tears flow as i kept pressing. "GODDAMN IT GRIMMJOW!!! WAKE UP!!!" i kept pressing. the tear clouded my vision. i kept pressing. i held the soiled shirt to his head. i breathed into his lungs. i kept pressing. no response. i kept pressing. i was stopped from pressing when arms grabbed me. i didn't let them take me away. i kept pressing. another set of arms. they weren't strong enough. i kept pressing. i tried to breath into his lungs. another set of arms. i was being pulled away. they held me as he was put on a stretcher. i tried to go back but they didn't let me. he was put into the ambulance. they let me ride with him. i held his hand as they cleaned up the blood. they tossed the shirt and replaced it with bandages. so many bandages. they put the air mask on him. i squeezed his hand.  so tightly my knuckles went white. all he wanted me to do was squeeze his hand back. i squeezed trying to will him back from the depths of the darkness. they put an iv in him. we got to the hospital. i had to get out as he was taken out. i held his hand as he was rushed to the emergency room. they wouldn't let me follow him into the or. i just sat in the lobby with my head in my hands. the tears didn't stop flowing. it was all my fault. if only i wasn't so dense. if only i would have noticed. saw how tightly he held to my hand. i called ichigo. i needed a friend.

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y-yeah....

its....its...its bad. its so fucking bad......

what is wrong?

its grimmjow....he fucking tried to kill himself....its all my fault...its..