I got raped

I'm a cutter I cut my self to be happy cause I got raped be my brother and I'm like really scared if he see this but anyway I have two sisters and 3 brothers the big one is 24 he raped me he told me if u tell anyone I will kill u and your mom and sisters I said please don't do this he slapped me on the face and told me to shut the fuck up and then tied me to the bed and raped me I was scared and I screamed but no one heard me my mom and sisters where out I was the only one in the house with him then his phone rang it was my mom she was out said and said open the door and he said ok and he was putting his hand on my mouth cause I wouldn't scream and I was crying and telling he stop and he wouldn't then he went to open the door my mom came to the room and said what where u doing I told her I was watching tv then she said ok honey love u I told her I love u too from that day he Capet coming to my room and he would touch me everywhere and I would say please stop he wouldn't stop then I stared to cut myself the same day he came in my room then he saw my hand and said what is this I didn't say anything to him he told me are u cutting your self I didn't answer him then he slapped me and if I ever see this ever again I will kill u I did it again then he hit me so bad that I couldn't move then he said I would kill u if u did it again but I'm not I was crying the next I went to school I had friends but not a lot one of them like me and loved me he told me where have you been I told him I was sack he said aww are u ok know I said yeah I'm fine he said ok can I come tonight I told he ok come at 8:00 a clock he said ok him name is jake he came I was wearing shorts I forgot about my cuts he sat next to me then he saw the scars he said what is this he said who did this to u tell me answer me sara what is going on tell me I won't tell anyone u know me more then anything in the world it's ok I'm here for u he said then sara started crying he please tell me I can't see u like this she said u won't tell anyone he said I won't she said. Ok guys I'm gonna go I'm sorry I didn't finish it but I will later