Betrayal... That is what I see when I look in your eyes.
Emptiness... Is what I hear in your voice when you try to speak to me with your lies.
You have pushed me away. I don't miss you anymore. I only miss the memories we made,
When I was a little girl needing love and care, and I got more than I could ever ask for but now it's all disappeared in mid air
So now all I see is betrayal and emptiness.
Don't expect me to forgive you and your sorrow.
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If I were to disappear would you look for me?
Would even notice me missing from this mad world?
Sometimes I wish things.
I wish I was beautiful.
I wish someone understood.
But no one does.
So darkness I became.
And no one knows my name
There is nothing for me here
I'm irrelevant to this place
Just taking up valuable space.
I need more distance.
I'm running fast but I think I'm going the wrong way
Why couldn't I have stayed?
Have you even noticed I've been gone?
I wonder if you are looking for my missing body.
But now you just need to find my soul.
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The body is an amazing thing but I take it for granted...
Skin protects me from the things that get thrown my way. Yet I cut it and scratch it.
Ribs keep my heart safe from the intruders trying to rip it open and break it. But they still somehow succeed.
My head is supposed to make the bad thoughts leave. But they still get in and create a scene that is not supposed to be.
My eyes are supposed to let me see the bad things that come my way.
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Distorted souls
Contorted into demons in my dreams
Seems to me like I'm loosing my sanity
Maybe life isn't what it's turned out to be
I'm spinning out of control crashing to the ground
Found a monster under my bed laughing in my head
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What is the last resort?
Is it jumping? Off that little ledge under your feet into a pool of earth?
Is it pulling? That little piece of plastic that creates a loud noise?
Is it speeding? Into a tall building or crowd?
Is it speaking? To your love to talk it out?
Is it tying? That long thing and putting it up high?
Is it finding? A friend to talk to?
What exactly is the last resort?
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Promised to protect
