Broken /// (Daryl Dixon //// The Walking Dead fan fiction)

Chapter 31

Bailey

We get back and Rick gathers everyone to the church.

"We went to the hilltop and met all the people there and Maggie made a deal with the leader over there. That if we took care of these people called Negan and his group the Saviors that are taking their supplies and stealing their people and threatening to kill them, then we get half their supply's. We really need these supply's so we are going to have to kill these bad people." He says looking around at everyone

"Even if we didn't do this they would eventually find us and attack us so better to take them on when they don't know we're coming."

Morgan then stands up "we can talk to these people Rock we don't have to kill them." He argues "look you don't have to kill them but you have to be okay with us killing them." Rick says

Morgan tries to argue but nobody is on his side so eventually he just stops straying and I can feel a pair of eyes on me and I already know who's they are.

"We kill them all." Rick finally declares and almost everyone get up and walks out while I sit there just staring forward.

I feel a hand on my shoulder and its Morgan "hey" he says smiling at me sadly "hi" I said "just so you know I'm kind of on your side." I said still staring forward. "Well we're not getting through to Rick." He says "Nope." I simply say and he walks out and I still sit there.

"Hey God." I start to say shaking my head because I sound stupid "long time no talk, anyways I don't know if you exist or if you do then your probably not there but if your listening please let us come out from this." I said "these people, my family I can't have them dying I still miss Noah." Saying his name made me sad so I stopped and looked at the ground "look you probably don't even exist." I said shaking my head.

I walk out of the church just walking around Alexandria not being able to sleep.

The next thing I notice is that the sun is coming up and people are starting to come out of their houses.

Rick has a meeting planned with some people to discus the plan so I decide to go one watch for this morning.

I pick up a gun on the way there and trade Sasha places and she puts a hand on my shoulder and I give her a small smile.

I guard pretty much all day until Michonne forces me to go get some sleep since we're leaving tomorrow for the war.

I give her the gun and walk off not really knowing where to go because I know I won't be able to sleep so it's pointless to go home.

I just walk until I find myself at the graves and I see Glenn standing there not really looking at anyone in particular.

He turns around and gives me a grim smile and I nod. "I've never killed a person." He states and I just nod my head "I am scared to do it." He says "I don't want to. But I will not loose my family." And I just keep nodding "don't judge me for doing this because I will hate myself if someone else does." "I don't hate you and I'm not judging." I say simply and he looks back at me "I'm going to have to kill someone." He says looking at Noah's grave that doesn't actually have a body underneath it.

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I go back home and walk into the boys room. I pick up a sleeping Skylar and put him in the same bed as Gabe. I then lay in the middle of them cuddling the both of them not wanting to let go of my boys.

I lay there stroking the boys hair and the door opens. Daryl peeks his head in and looks at me and I look at him for a second and then look down at Gabes head. And he closes the door and leaves and I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding in. I continue to stroke the boys hair all night still not sleeping.

The sun comes up and I sneakily get out of the bed careful of the boys. I leave and go to mine and Daryls room, I walk in quietly knowing he's asleep. I tiptoe into the room and brush my teeth and my hair pulling half of it up so its not in my face.

I finish getting ready in the bathroom when the door opens. I look and see Daryl walking in I try to get out of the bathroom but he blocks the door so I can't leave.

"Daryl let me out." I say not really looking him in the face "no." He says shaking his head "let me out now." I say getting frustrated "not until you talk to me." He says trying to make eye contact.

I just looked down when he eventually pulled my chin up to look at him. "Talk to me." "This is murder!" I whisper yell not wanting anyone to wake up. "We are murdering people for supplies!" I say feeling the tears in the corners of my eyes now starting to blur my vision.

"We are murdering people. What are we even doing anymore?!?"

I start crying when he grabs me and pulls me into his chest letting me cry.