Dream Or Reality [Completed]

Chapter 19

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Chapter 19

"Mom, dad, I miss you both!" Haley said after she kissed the two of them in cheeks.

"Ang tagal namang beach outing yan anak, you were gone for two weeks!" She can hear mom's sarcasm.

She smiled sweetly. She was tired and weak. Pero hindi nya pwedeng ipahalata kasi makakahalata ang mga magulang nya.

She stayed on the hospital for more than weeks. Christmas break na sa school. The date was already December 27.

"Akala ko, titira ka na doon hanggang New Year. Papaluin kita sa puwet kapag ginawa mo yon!" Dad said. She knows, her dad can do it even if she was twenty already.

"Hindi dad, I missed you na kasi kaya umuwi na ko." Niyakap pa nya ito sa bewang. She really missed them.

Nakaramdam kasi sya ng takot habang nanatitili sya sa ospital. What if she'd die without seeing her parents?

Hindi pa sya graduate at gusto pa nyang ihatid sya ng mga ito sa stage. She knows, her parents would be proud for her if the time comes.

But she remember Dr. Reyes said to her before she was discharged.

"Hey, you told me you missed your dad, but you're spacing out. Is there a problem, baby?" She just smiled and she focused herself to her dad.

Alam nyang mali ang ginagawa nyang paglilihim pero hindi nya kayang sabihin sa mga ito ang kalagayan nya.

"N-nothing dad. I'm just tired. Nakakapagod magswimming saka babad na babad ako sa araw!" Palusot nya na ikinakunot ng noo ng Mama nya.

"Babad sa araw, how come you're not tan and you look pale?" Ngumiti sya ng alanganin.

"M-mom, you know my skin. Hindi ako umiitim kahit na magbabad ako sa ilalim ng araw."

She was like that when she was lying. Ugh! Sana lumusot...

Pero hindi nya ata swerte sa araw na to. Her mom knows she was lying!

"You're lying!" Siguradong sigurado ang pagkakasabi ni Mommy na ikinalukot ng ilong nya. How can she survive in her mom's interrogation?

"Mom, I wanted to lay on my bed. Let's talk tomorrow. Love yah!" Malambing nyang palusot dito. Her mom sighed, sign of defeat.

"Let's talk tomorrow, I love you too." Sabay halik sa noo nya. Dad did the same too.

"Rest well, baby!" Narinig pa nyang bilin ng Daddy nya na ikinangiti nya. She would miss those moments.

Ibinagsak nya ang katawan nya sa malambot na kama at tumingala sa kisame.

Hindi nya napigilan ang kanina pang nagbabadyang luha sa mga mata nya. Nagmula ng makausap nya ang doctor nya hanggang sa kausap nya ang mga magulang nya.

She wanted to tell her illness to her parents. Yung gusto nyang bumalik sa batang Haley na magsusumbong sa mga magulang nya kapag nasasaktan sya.

She was hurt, mentally and physically.

Pinigilan na nyang hwag umiyak sa harap ni Ivan kanina dahil aawayin na naman nito ang mga nurses sa ospital na pagmamayari nila.

Yung sa bawat pagtusok sakanya ng karayom, sa bawat pagpalit sa kanya sa swero, gusto nyang magwala. Hanggang kailan aasa ang katawan nya sa mga gamot?

She knows she is becoming weak every day. Every time she takes medicine, she was vomiting. Yung natatakot sya isang araw na baka hindi na kayanin ng katawan nya at ito na mismo ang mag-g-give up.

She is not afraid to die. Pero natatakot sya para sa mga magulang nya. They did everything to have a good life they think she deserved. They pampered her. They comfort her by loving her with all they might.

Hindi nya kayang isipin na baka hindi ng mga ito kapag nawala na sya sa mundo.

Ayaw nyang magpa-heart transplant sa isang rason. She cannot afford to lose a life just to make her live.

Unfair sa pamilya ng taong magbibigay sakanya ng pangalawang buhay.

Hindi nya kayang isipin na pagkatapos ng gagawin nya, maipagkakait para sa taong yun ang huminga, ang mabuhay. Ipagkakait nya ang dapat buhay na kasama ang pamilya nito.

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"Mahal na mahal ko sya, Ella..." Madamdamin nyang sabi sa taong kaharap nya.

Ngumiti ito sakanya. "Then let go of me. Love her until of your last breathe. Be with her until your hair is white.

"But I'm scared. Paano kung iiwan nya ko? Paano kung mawawala na sya sakin? Hindi ko kakayanin pag nagkataon. Ella."

Binatukan sya nito at pinanlakihan ng mata. "Hwag mo kasing isipin ang ganoon. Kakayanin ni Haley ang mabuhay. Kakayanin nya kasi matapang sya, kasi malakas ang loob. Kung tutuusin, pangalawang buhay na nya ito pero buhay parin sya hanggang ngayon. Magpasalamat ka na humihinga pa sya." Pagalit na sabi nito.

"What if she won't accept me again? What if she push me away the way I push her away before?" Nag-aalangan sya. Natatakot syang ma-reject ng taong nag-iisa nyang minahal?

Napanguso ito. "You deserve it if she does. But don't give up on her yet." Huminga ito ng malalim na parang may naisip. "Kung hindi lang sana ako dumating sa buhay nyo, sana masaya parin kayong dalawa..." Sisi nito sa sarili.

"It's not your fault. I decided it on my own, Ella." Gian said sincerely.

Umiling iling ito. "Pero pwede mo na kong pakawalan, Gian. Okay na ko. Kaya ko ng harapin pa to ng mag-isa..." Ella sighed again. "Now, it's your turn to be happy."

Napatitig sya dito. Gone the Ella he met two years ago. Masaya syang isa sya sa dahilan kung bakit hindi na patapon ang buhay nito.

She was turing eighteen next year, January. Coincidence sigurong matatawag na magkaa-birthday sila ni Haley.

He smiled when he remember her. She was still the same Haley he loved/ and he loves still.

Sana nga lang tanggapin parin sya nito at matutunang mahalin ulit...

"Kamusta na kayo ng gago mong ex?" Tanong nya dito. He can say that Ella and her ex were bad influence of each other.

Huminga sya ng malalim. Hindi nya alam kung tama bang iwan si Ella. He was not yet sure if Ella can manage on her own...