Dream Or Reality [Completed]

Chapter 25

Chapter 25

"Ganoon ganoon nalang bay un, Haley? You tell me to stop because you're still not ready." He looked so hurt but she cannot do anything about it.

Haley looked upset and confused. "You said, you're tired, and when I told you to stop, you're complaining, what the hell is wrong with you?"

"You're unbelievable. You must have told me to wait for you that you are getting there. Hindi yung sasabihin mong tumigil na ko kasi napakasakit sakin yun, Haley. It's like you're depriving me to breathe inorder to live."

"I cannot lie to you, Gian. Bakit hindi mo ako maintindihan na hindi pa ko handa. I may have forgiven you. I may have dated you a million times, but the fact that I'm not yet ready, the dates are meaningless."

He looked so hurt. "Wow, so all along. I valued all the moments we shared pero it's meaningless for you? You're a heartbreaker, Haley."

"You know it's not like that, Gian. If you cannot wait for me then please, stop loving me. You said you're tired. Pagod ka na diba, tumigil ka ng mahalin ako."

"A little hope, Haley. Yun lang naman, para piliin kong magpatuloy."

"I don't want to give you hopes when I'm not really sure about my feelings, it's like worse than a heartbreaker."

"But is that what you really feel? Hindi mo na ba talaga ako mahal o kaya hindi mo na ba ko kayang mahalin kahit konti lang?"

"I love you still..." She was sure about that but then she was not sure about giving her heart more for commitment or relationship with him.

He smiled with hope in his eyes. But she shook her head as a sign of disapproval off his thoughts. "Pero paulit ulit ko ding sinasabi, na hindi pa ko handa."

"Fvck, Haley." He cursed her.

Napaiyak nalang sya saa nararamdaman nya. Is it wrong to make sure about her feelings?

Nasaktan na sya noon, nasaktan na sya dahil dito. Tinitimbang lang naman nya ang sarili nya kung kaya nya itong mahalin ng buong buo.

Pero sa pinapakita nito sakanya, he's getting impatient. Why can he understand her?

--

Three months later...

Haley was ready to go, but there's something in her that she wanted to stay...

She is already leaving. Mali, oo. Tatakbuhan nya yung nararamdaman nya kay Gian.

Lahat naman ng tao, kapag nasasaktan, gusto nalang iwan yung lugar kung saan sila unang nasaktan, kung saan nila una nakita at minahal yung taong minamahal nila.

She wasn't the girl who cannot be moved. She needed to keep going in order for her not to lose her sanity.

Nakakabaliw palang maghintay sa isang taong hindi nya alam kung babalik pa. T

The day he walked out on her house is the last day she saw him.

She did not just stay on one corner to see him. She did everything. She went to Navarro's house, she went to the condo he stayed in Manila yet it's really frustrating to go there because she got her long heartbreak there.

She went to everything that it's possible for him to go, but she never saw him even his shadow.

His parents said that they don't know where the hell he was. Hindi nya alam kung maniniwala sya sa mga ito pero hindi nalang nya pinilit magtanong, kasi ang isang tao kapag hindi mahanap hanap, ay sadyang nagtatago.