My hearts become too cold to break .::ELY::.

The Future Wife and the Weirdo

After I dropped Freakshow off, I get a text from Ned asking if Eugene and I would do a video for his series Ship It. Eugene already agreed since it was in our long running group text. While I contemplate doing the video Zach and Keith reply with
"This would be so precious!"-Zach
"Imagine how fast that would go viral, do it, it'd be cute!"- Keith.
Then Zach sends me a text via our conversation not in the group.
"If turn this down you're basically breaking your promise to me,"-Zach
I text Zach back,"I hate you so much you know why would you make me do this?"
"Because you both like each other the only thing standing in your way is you, and your fear of being hurt," Zach texts.
Fuck you and your truths Zach, for the sake of mine and Zach's friendship I guess I'll potentially ruin another of mine. That sounds awful, but he really believes that Eugene is the one, then I guess it's worth a shot.
"I'm in I guess" I reply to the group text.
"Sometimes I hate you Zach," I text to him as I walk through the doors of the buzzfeed motion pictures office.
"Beau! Come one you're gonna be late for the meeting," I hear Ned call and walk towards the conference room he's in, turns out it's just the try guys and me.
"So for the ship it/ single AF video you guys are actually going to be together for two weeks since it's a collab video, and the stakes are going to be higher, you'll be spending more time together, planning more dates or special days for each other, and an anniversary. It'll be great!" Ned says I groan mentally.
"How much of these two weeks do we have to film?" I ask.
"As much as possible if not all of it, we'll set up cameras around your house Beau, since Eugene's landlord is testing about us filming there for long periods of time." Zach says,"and that way you two don't have to worry about holding a camera all the time. It should look like a to show with the angles we'll be getting"
"Alright when are we starting this?" Eugene asks.
" tomorrow good for you two?" Ned asks.
I look to Eugene and he shrugs,"yeah, it'll give me time to clean up a little,"
"Tomorrow it is then," Zach confirms,"now on to the try guys video"
And they toss around ideas before settling on another try on video, because those generally tend to go over pretty well. I miss what they're trying on but knowing them it's something weird, and then the meeting is through and we're free to go back to our desks.
"Do you want to talk about the video?" Eugene asks.
"Which one?" I ask looking at my computer screen still.
"Keith's, I saw the rough draft." He says.
"Oh how was it?" I ask.
"It's a good video, it didn't do the date justice though," he says I look at him,"it was way more fun than it looks"
"Well we didn't film a good chunk of it," I shrug," you with my whole breakdown and whatnot"
"Yeah, we still need to talk about that too," he says and I look at him.
"No we don't," I say and he rolls his eyes.
"Oh so problem with the ship it video, I'm supposed to go with my mom to Korea, the second week, so we'll have to film one week be divorced for a week and then get remarried because, I'm shooting another video, I've already talked to Zach and Ned" he says looking at his computer.
"Or we could just film for three weeks instead," I suggest.
"Ooh that could be good," he says,"I'll ask Ned what his deadline is, when he gets back"
I sigh and go back to editing a video about the struggles of having both depression and anxiety at work, it's kind of part of a series Kelsey started about having anxiety, I just added something to it, we're basically the "sick girls" as we try to destigmatize mental illnesses, by making them relatable to people who don't have one, and the people who do feel a little less alone. 

I'm almost finished with the video by 5 one more day and it'll be ready, I'll just have to add the credits, fix a couple sound bytes, pick a thumbnail, and it'll be good to go.
"See you tomorrow future wife," Eugene laughs getting up from his desk.
"See you tomorrow weirdo," I smile and make my way to my car, I do some grocery shopping before I head home and start cleaning up my invisible mess, these cameras catch everything. Satisfied with the cleanliness of my house I take Freakshow for our nightly walk around the block before feeding him and getting ready for bed.
Just as I'm about to fall asleep my phone goes off bringing me back to full consciousness.
"Ned says filming for three weeks instead of two is brilliant and he wishes he had thought of it..."
And then another that says," P.S I hate you, just kidding I don't hate you, don't listen to me I'm grumpy,"  both are from Eugene.
He really must not like being in front of a camera, or maybe he just doesn't want to spend three weeks with you? That's a major possibility, why did you have to suggest three weeks instead of two? You're and idiot  Beau that's why. I reply with something along the lines of "okay I'm sorry, I shouldn't have suggested it"
To which Eugene just calls me, and I foolishly answer.
"Beau, stop it's a great idea, I'm just going to already be filming another video, and filming one stresses me out because I want it to be perfect," he says," don't be so down on yourself all the time,"
"If only it were that simple Eugene," I say
"What do you mean?" He asks and I tell him basically my life story and about my depression, and being Bullied for not being like everyone else," hey I was literally beat up a kid because I'm Asian, Beau, I understand, but I don't let it hold me back, I guess in your situation it's a little different though huh?"
"Yeah just a little," I agree.
"But hey you'll make it,  you're a strong woman, I know you can" he says,"and that probably doesn't help any but I am here of you need me, or if you want someone to be with you while you pick up the piece, you don't have to do this alone"
"Thank you, but it's probably best if I do" I say.
"Well if you ever change your mind you know my number, and you know where I live" he says,"I'll let you get some sleep, or do you need me to come cuddle you again? Because I definitely will,"
I smile,"no I should be okay thanks though"
"Alright, goodnight, Beau" he says,"call me if you need anything"
"Goodnight Eugene," I say the smile still present only face, he really is such a sweetheart.