I woke up to no one in my room. I went out to the living room and said good morning to everyone. I decided to go take a shower.
I got out of the shower and got ready. I went back into the living room and saw Zach was laying on the couch smiling at his phone. I decide to go sit beside him and right when I came near him he closes his phone. Zach sat up and I laid down on his lap. He started playing with my wet hair.
" hey Emma wanna come to the store with me to get some stuff for a YouTube video ? " Maddie asked me
" yeah sure why not " I got up off the couch and we headed to the car.
" so did anything happen between you and Zach? You guys seem like you have gotten closer to each other since the last time I saw you ? " she said to me raising her eye brows.
" yeah we kissed " I straight up said.
" OMG REALLY HOW WAS IT ?" She started freaking out.
" it was amazing. It was like there was no one on the planet except for me and him. "
" awe that's adorable " she said
* skips the shopping *
I walk in the house and I don't see Zach anywhere. Right before I walk into his room I hear him laughing with someone.I opened the door seeing him kissing another girl. Zach and the girl turn to the door and I realize who it was it was Ariel from musically. ( a/n I don't hate Ariel. I have nothing against her. This is just a story )
" it's not what it looks like Emma I swear" I hear Zach say as I run out of his room.
I run past the living room making everyone stare at me and ask what's wrong. I run to my room and close the door and then I go to the bathroom that is in my room and close that door as well. I get out my makeup bag and get my razor blade out. I look down at my wrist realizing that I was almost one year clean... But none of that matter anymore. I cut my wrist and then I made another. I put my bleeding wrist under the cold water.
" Emma " I heard Maddie say.
I was in complete shock. What did I do? I thought I locked the doors but I guess I didn't lock them. I fell to the floor crying. Maddie sat on the floor with me and hugged me while I bawled my eyes out. I told Maddie I needed some alone time. So she left my room and I decided to go on a walk so I went threw my window so no one would know where I was.
I got a notification that Edwin was live.
Zach was there and he seemed perfectly fine. Maddie was also there.
I went on Twitter and tweeted
@ Emma.hastings: I trusted you
@ Emma.hastings: but you broke my heart
I went back to Younow and see people commenting if I was okay and that I tweeted. Maddie went to Go check what I tweeted and she read them out loud. She got worried so she went to go check on me in our room but I wasn't there. She called me.
"Hello ?" I said
" hey Emma where are you? I'm worried about why are you upset.?"
" I went on a walk I needed air and why don't you ask the dick head next to you why I'm upset " I hung up the phone I didn't wanna speak to anyone.
I walked to the beach it was like 11 pm so there wasn't really anyone there. I walked over to the shore and felt the waves hit my feet and then felt my feet go cold and that process repeated.
It was almost 12 am and my phone was soon gonna die so I decided to walk back " home "
As I walked back inside the house. I heard everyone gasp of relief when they saw me. They all ran up to me hugging me.
" Emma we were worried sick. We heard what happened and we are terribly sorry to hear that." Nick said.
I gave nick another hug and went to me and maddies room. Maddie followed behind me.
" can we talk ?" She asked me
" yeah "
" so about earlier what I saw in the bathroom.. Why did you do it ? "
" I used to always do it but I was almost one year clean and when I saw Zach kissing her.. I guess it triggered me to do it. I don't know why I did I'm so sorry Maddie I really didn't mean to do it to myself. " I said crying now. Maddie came and hugged me but as we hugged we swayed back and fourth. I'm really thankful to have a friend like her...
