I looked at the walls around me for hours nothing seemed to change the same four walls I been looking at for years,the same bed without a linen,the same food pans and my portable potty. You may be thinking I'm in jail but I'm just 16 and where I'm describing is my room . I live with my mom and little sister my home isn't what some people would call an happy home. All I can really remember in this home is strange men coming into my room and giving my mother money every night I used to cry an pray for a different life for my sister never mind me for in my mind I'm already dead
As a teen I don't care for my hygiene or clothes or even friends ,the type of life style I'm used to my friends won't understand,it wasn't always like this I used to be happy with a childhood. My name is Renia and if you saw me you wouldn't think to imagine what I face inside
I remember days of me smiling and playing with my father,he made me a sand box but there was no sand just toys but believe me I was happy. The ball that we played with every Friday had colours that lit up my eyes every colour of the rainbow those days my mom was happy too.
My world became dark,when my father had leave my family for a better,bigger family. I can still remember what my mother used to say "he must be in a house with white Pickett fence and a bunch of kids with there perfect teeth" It hurt me so much to think a man that brought me so much joy before brings so much sorrow within my life now. When I think about it now my mother felt the same.
My emotions went wild and my mind was set on wondering .I wonder why he had done this to me and Pexxi. We were hungry most nights,there was no heat within the house and no man to fix the plumbing. No one wanted to hire my mom for she was a drug addict. When she went low on her stash of cocaine,she used me to get back more. My skin felt like it wasn't mine every time I looked at myself naked it remind me of the strange men touching me and smelling like liquor. All I wanted was to be set free but I wouldn't go without my sister pexxi,so I had to be Strong for her as any big sister would.
