Suicide at its Finest

One

Welcome to my first story....! Well, on this account. Hope you enjoy, and if not, then kindly stop reading this book :)

Warning: May cause triggers! Proceed with caution, you were warned.

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Chapter 1

Splash.

Splash.

Splash.

The skies roared angrily. Thunder clouds rolled in, rain plummeted onto the ground like a million bullets, the wind howled in the midnight air, yet there was something soothing about the storm. It was nice to know that I wasn't alone in this world, that nature could be angry too.

I felt the rough bark of the tree rub against my back. It's leaves sheltered me from the harsh weather. If only the rain could drown me, I thought to myself bitterly.

Pulling my knees to my chest, I sat under a giant Oak tree and quietly observed the scene in front of me. This was a painfully dystopian world. I never quite understood why things were the way they were. Why couldn't we all just love each other? Even more- ourselves? Drop by drop, the rain that glistened softly against my skin dragged all of my problems down with it.

I sighed, standing up as I dusted off the dirt on my jeans. I pulled the hoodie over my head and walked through the rain. All I could hear was the rain slamming onto the ground, not a single sound interrupted it's rapid melody.

The longer I walked, the heavier my clothes became. My jacket was no longer useful so I pulled it off and tied it around my waist. I walked through my neighborhood and glanced into a particular house.

There was a man in the front of the fireplace as he read his kids a story. All of their faces lit up in anticipation, wrapping the blanket that covered them around their tiny, little fists. His wife walked into the room with a smile on her face. She said something which caused the children to groan in disapproval. He placed his hand on his wife's shoulder and convinced her to do things his way.

He always wanted to do things his way.

My heart warmed at the sight of this perfect family but it then dropped as all the memories came crashing down at once. My heart squeezed for the little kids. He'd better treat them right. He better not become the father that he used to be, because i'll be damned if his kids turned out to be just like me.

As if he felt my stare burning through the glass windows, our eyes met for a brief moment. He did a double take as if he couldn't believe what he was seeing. But before he had the chance to confirm if what he saw was real, I was already out of sight.

"Stupid Skye, never again." I promised myself, "Never again." He's in the past now, I should just leave him there. It's what's best for the both of us.

My mother died a couple of years ago due to cancer. I think that it hit my father the hardest. Of course it hit me pretty hard, but she was the love of his life. He's loved her since they were in high school. Ever since she died, my father became an alcoholic. There was not a day that went by when I saw him sober.

That was until his future wife appeared. She helped him get back on his feet and he grew in love with her. She knows that my mother will always have a place in his heart and she didn't mind. That's why my father loves her and that's why I can't hate her. He left me behind... I guess it was probably because he didn't want any reminders of my mother's death. I couldn't blame him. I was a spitting image of her.

So here I am, alone in this world, wishing that this empty feeling inside of me would end. If I could reverse time, I wouldn't change a thing. My happiness may be destroyed but my father has so much more ahead of him. He has to raise his kids, teach them everything he's learned.

The only regret that I have was not being able to talk to him for a painful amount of years. But I've learned to live with it and i've been fine living in solitary. So far i've managed to take good care of myself. I paid my bills every month, fed myself everyday, and slept well. I tried hard to keep myself alive. Too bad nothing good came out of it. Such a shame.

I could see my house a few blocks away, but that's when I noticed something strange.

I stood in the middle of the road and focused on this weird orb. I didn't care that it was pouring or that my clothes were soaking wet. I could only focus on this ball of light that floated in mid air.

HOOONK!

My interest turned to confusion. Sooner or later, I hit realization.

It was a car.

"MOVE!" My brain yelled, but my feet were frozen to the ground. It was strange, I wanted to move- to jump to the side, but the other half of me wanted to stay a little while longer and see what would happen to me if I did.

Death is a huge possibility, but that was the least of my worries. Then my brain snapped. Whoever this person is behind the wheel might be a happy, successful person. If you let him/her kill you, the thought will haunt them forever. They will turn depressed. Knowing how it feels like, I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.

Before the car had a chance to collide with my body, I jumped on the side and felt as my body drop to the floor with a thud. The car lurched forward as it came to a hard stop. I felt the world stop for a split second. Emotions piled on me as I realized what I was about to do. I should feel ashamed but I wasn't. I was anything but.

The car door burst open as a dark figure stepped out slowly. Still on the floor, I tried to make out the appearance of this person. But it was too dark and the rain didn't help one bit.

As the person came closer, a slight ray of light illuminated on her face, revealing a small portion of her appearance. A gasp escaped from my mouth unwillingly. I've seen her before. I can feel it.

Think Skye, think.

I snapped my fingers and my eyes widened. "No." I whispered, cowering back, "How is that even possible?" Was I going insane? I felt like I was crazy, but this was real life, this is actually happening.

She pulled her hoodie off and I nearly fainted. "You." I whispered, yet it was loud enough for her to hear. She was the girl that I feared.

The girl from my dreams.  

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Did I pull you guys in yet or am I that much of a crappy writer? Lol, be honest! No feelings will be hurt.

Anyways I HOPE that this chapter is enough to make you guys stay tuned for the next. Stay happy and healthy! Someone loves you <3 (Like me)