"Vikk.." I felt hands pushing against my back. I turned and saw Simon towering over.
"Wha-"
"I needed to check on you.. I didn't want to leave you upset," he sat with my on the bed. "After you called I started making my way home, you're too precious to me." I saw him staring at my arms, I too glanced only to be met with the cloth of my sweater. I didn't need to reveal anything at this point. All my demons were hidden under the thin sweater.
"Go back to sleep," He said, attempting to walk out of my room.
"Stay," I whined, craving his attention. His arms wrapped around my body, making me feel whole again.
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"I just don't like that Simon is controlling you like a slave. You have your own mind, heart," Harry's voice was thick with worry as we walked out of the house. We didn't really know where we were going, but I couldn't care less. He had called me earlier in the day asking if we could hang out. I had declined his offer at first but knew I needed to get out of that room, out of that house.
"I need to be honest with you.. We are seeing each other, kinda."
"What does that even mean?"
"He told me he likes me.. And I think I like him too," The both of us trended onward without any sound. Clouds of gray were forming around us like the unsaid thoughts of Harry's mind. He was always the quiet type when it came to sensitive situations like this. I would try to pick at his brain but at this point I knew it wasn't worth it.
"I'm happy, for you.." His eyes were glazed over as if he were holding back tears.
"No you aren't. Harry I know how you feel about me."
"But I want you to be happy and if Simon makes you happy then I'm okay with it, I promise Vikk," a tear slipped down his cheek. I pushed him against the nearest building, a small shed on the way to the city.
"Okay now it's your turn. You said you wanted to tell me something, I don't know if the information I just gave you will affect that.." Harry remained quiet. I couldn't handle silence at this point, I needed something, anything to distract me.
"Talk." That one word contained enough anger, he flinched then replied.
"Can we sit down first?"
"No. You said you wanted to talk to me so talk."
"I love you."
A beginners guide to having your mind fucked in 10 seconds
Step fucking 1, have one of your closes mates tell you they love you.
Step fucking 2, have all the memories of when you used to feel the same hit you.
Step fucking 3, kys because these emotions are death themselves. Save yourself from even more heartbreak.
Even if I make the directions I never listen to them.
I couldn't think my mind was in shambles and words couldn't be pronounced. Once again I was a mess, but that's nothing new. We were still walking, the quiet was truly deafening
"I- I have to do this," I threw caution to the wind as our lips connected. He lightly bit down on mine,causing a moan of pleasure to escape. His pale arms traveled up and down my side looking for a home on my hips. Harry's sweet lips attacked my neck, leaving love bites on my darker skin. I connected his puffy lips with mine once again. Soft. Gentle. Warm. That's how I would describe the kiss. He disconnected, both of us staring into the others eyes.
"I don't know what this means.." I nodded in agreement. Simon and I aren't together, technically. Harry and I have only kissed once. Maybe the situation isn't as bad as it looks. "Let's just make the most of tonight.. Okay?"
"Okay," That's when he took my hand, and we were off.
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"It's all about the way you flick your wrist," he said demonstrating the proper way to skip stones. I was having flashback of mine and Simon's trip to the park, something about this moment was bring it all back.
"Like this?" I said throwing a pebble in. It sank without so much as one ripple.
"No silly," he encased his arms around me holding a stone for the both of us. "Like this," his wrist flicked and the stone skipped the water.
"I literally suck at anything that isn't video games," he retracted from me, another stone in hand.
"No, you're amazing Vikk."
"Ehh whatever you say bog," we both sat at the bank of the small pond. Don't ask me how we found it, we were just aimlessly walking around and there it was. Harry scooted closer to me, pulling me into a tight hug.
"I know that when we get back you'll be with Simon and all. But I'm really happy I got my feelings out.." I just nodded along, not too sure what to say exactly.
"You know you'll always be my best mate right? So if Simon fucks it you can take matters into your own hands," we both laugh at that. I knew Simon wouldn't do anything like that though.
"We should probably be getting back."
I retrieve my phone from my pocket. 5 new messages. Fuck how did I not feel the vibrations.
From Si <3:
You promised to be home 45 minutes ago
Delivered 34 minutes ago
From Si <3:
"Going out to get milk." You're such a bad liar.
Delivered 20 minutes ago
From Si <3:
With Harry? Seriously
Delivered 16 minutes ago
From Si <3:
Don't bother talking to me when you get home
Delivered 9 minutes ago
From Josh:
Yo is something wrong with Simon? I hear crying and I don't really know what to do..
Delivered 1 minute ago
"Harry. We need to get back to the house. Now."
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"Are you sure you're going to be okay?" Harry asked as we approached the door.
"I can't just avoid him.." The younger boy pecked me on the cheek, making his way back to the car.
"Good luck doll." I was going to need it. I pushed my key into the house and walked in, Josh and JJ were in the kitchen, probably eating in between a recording.
"You have some explaining to do Mister," was JJ's only remark.
"Harry wanted to-"
"Why are you explaining it to us? We aren't the ones crying our eyes out.."
"Wait, he's that fucking tilted about this?" They both nodded and I knew I was in trouble.
"I'll be back," I ushered myself up the stairs, gingerly making my way to Simon's room. The door, to my surprise wasn't locked, rookie mistake Si. I didn't immediately step in, instead I just listened to the sounds in front of me. Sniffling and the moving of bed sheets was all I could make out. Creaking the door, I stepped in.
"Simon, we need to talk.."
"I don-"
"I don't give a fuck what you want right now. Both of us have things we need to say," he just stayed quiet.
"Why did you lie.. It's not even, well. Nevermind. Why did you lie?"
"Because I know how you feel about Harry."
"That's another thing, Harry likes to come onto people, especially vulnerable people like you Vikk," I stared intently at him, his eyes puffy. Reddened face, blotchy complexion.
"You don't think I'm capable of taking care of myself?"
"You're twisting my words. I'm saying if given the opportunity Harry will use you.." Last nights meltdown was triggering me, the similar words hurting me to the same extent.
"And how do I know you won't do the same," his eyebrows peaked and his mouth shut. He didn't have a real answer for me, because how can an ordinary person predict when and what they will do to someone? The best you can do is compromise by saying the shitty phrase 'I didn't mean to hurt you'. Of course you don't fucking mean to hurt someone, no one ever does. But you can never fully promise something of this extent.
"You know what.. I know I will never use you, because if I really wanted to use you Vikk I would've slept with you the first second I found out you had any sort of attraction to me. I would've stole a part of your innocence and left, but here I am arguing about my love for you. So do you really think I would waste all my time if I just wanted a piece of ass?" He made a good point, no one has ever put this much effort into me.
"Im- I'm sorry," that's the only thing I could think of to say. Two measly words were supposed to be the glue to fix my indiscretions. Simon just nodded and pulled me into a hug. We aren't even dating but we already fight like we've been together for years. In this moment I couldn't tell if it was a blessing or a curse.
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WOAHHH, two updates in one dayyy. You guys were being super sweet in the comments so I wanted to spoil you. Thank you guys for everything, we just hit over 500 reads, which is the beginning to something amazing.The two next chapter are gonna be fillers so yeaa sorry in advance. Idk comment whatever you want on this chapter :--) ilygsm
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FanfictionI guess happiness was too much to ask for considering I never got it.
