The moment I knew

I've never been a kind person 

Loving nor friendly

But who would have guessed 

Just how unloving I truely am 

The phone rings, 10:12 in the a.m, as a cousin calls 

My uncle, the newly sober drunk 

Had died 

I knew minutes before of the seizure

Then the crash 

I knew minutes before of the helecopter ride 

And the hospital drop 

But when my mom answered to phone

Seconds later my mother cried 

The stongest has fallen 

Though I didn't care 

My uncle had died and I felt nothing 

Well I did feel something 

Though confusion is not the same 

Am I as cruel as I pretended to be 

Wanted to be