blame it on the alcohol

"just blame it on the alcohol"

When we got back into the car L.Joe bursted out in loughing. "Oh come on! You've got me!", he said.
I was drunk already but didn't wanted him to know so I just tried to have a cheeky smile. 
He told our driver to bring us back, while still having a smile on his lips. He was such a cutie. He was always charming and nice, but he's often making fun of me. acting like he's flirting with me and telling me that I am pretty and cute. So that's why I didn't wanted him to know I am drunk. In my head I heard him already saying: "Awww Niel beeing drunk is such a cute thing. I am really happy I can take care now of you my lovely."
Sure this would be really cute, if he would say this in his cute voice but I am afraid of how I feel for him. It confuses me so much so I try to keep him on distance. It's not that I don't like him.. I mean I really like him, but I never know how to feel when he's around. I feel happiness but at the same time I feel insecure. I start to think to much just like I do right now.
I am happy he's just sitting here in the car with me, still amused about the "date" and doesn't notice how I feel.
We arrived in our appartment pretty late and he looked up to the windows. "So dark there. I wonder where the others are..", he said.
I looked up and wondered too. Suddelny L.Joe grabbed my arm. "It's getting cold out here! Let's go in," he whispered charming and I think also a bit flirty in my ear. I tried to get my arm back but he didn't wanted to let go so easily. Since I was drunk I didn't wanted to fight much. I gave in and walked with him in. We took the elevator and got to our appartment. He already had the keys in his hand and as he opened up the door he finally let go of my arm. He went into he kitchen and found a note.
"Ahhhh, daddy went out with the boys!," he said and gave me the note because he saw in my eyes I didn't understood. I recognized C.A.P.s writting: "Yo boys, the boys still have a jetlag, so I took them out. We won't be back before tomorrow. Eat healthy and go to bed early. I don't want you to have a jetlag too.!"
He really was like our dad, taking care of us all and wondering if we eat enough.
Some carrot stripes been there in the kitchen and L.Joe just ate some.
"Hey, we just ate something..", I said, but he didn't cared and ate on. Then he took one stripe and hold it in front of me.
"Daddy want us to eat healthy," he said in the sweetest voice ever and man, I almost had to fanboy. So just because he was so cute I gave in to him and opened my mouth and take a bite.
He suddelny started loughing a bit but then he murmured: "Aww you're so cute. I know it's selfish but I am happy you're drunk and give me such a cute face."
I blushed and turned a bit away. I was in shock he had realised but he hadn't reacted as I thought. I was quite suprised.
"Ahh don't worry Niel! Here have some more carrot!", he said but he gave it into my hands.
I took a bit and hold the rest of the piece between my lips.
"It's late I should go to bed but before...", he whispered and moved a bit forward on his tip toes. He gave me a gently kiss as he took a bite from the carrot between my lips.
"Good night and if it made you feel unconfortable... just blame it on the alcohol!", he said and went to his room.