Mr. Nice Guy's Obsession

MNGO-24

MNGO-24

"Take a good rest, Ms. Aviles. Huwag kang masyadong magalaw kahit malakas ang kapit ni baby. Don't stress yourself too much. Bukas ay pu-pwedi ka nang lumabas.", nginitian ako ng babaeng doctor bago niya ako iniwan sa aking kwarto. Agad dumapo ang mga mata k okay Tia na nakaupo sa isang monoblock na nakadikit sa pader. She's looking at me with her arms crossed. I blinked twice and sighed.

Tia never left my side since last night. Napatingin ako sa wall clock na kaharap lang ng aking kama. Pasado alas sinco na ng hapon. Napahawak ako sa aking tiyan. Tia's eyes went down to my stomach then she raised her eyebrow.

"Are...are you hungry?", tanong niya sa akin. Nakataas parin ang isang kilay niya sa akin. Marahan akong tumango. She sighed and stood up. "Bababa lang ako. I buy you—I buy your baby's food!", aniya at nag-martsa na palabas ng aking kwarto.

I was left alone.

Humiga ako at bumuntong-hininga. What should I do? Napalunok ako ng maramdaman ko ang pamumuo ng bukol sa aking lalamunan. I curled myself like a fetus. I hugged my knees like it's my source of strength. What should I do after kong makalabas ng hospital? Should I tell Trivy? Or should I keep it to myself and run away like Tia told me?

Rumagasa ang mga luha mula sa aking mga mata. This is all my fault. I shouldn't have lit the fire again and poured fuel onto it. This is all my fault. Kung sana marunong akong makuntento sa kung anong meron ako e di sana wala ako sa ganitong sitwasyon ngayon. Greedy won't bring any good to a person. Kung di lang sana ako gahaman e di sana wala na uling Trivy sa buhay ko. Wala sanang gulo sa pagitan naming lahat. Masaya na siguro kami ngayon ni Yuo.

Narinig ko ang mag-ikot ng siradura. Tia's here. Pinahid ko muna ang aking mga luha bago bumaling kay Tia.

"Here. Eat.", aniya sabay lapag ng dala niyang pagkain sa maliit na mesa katabi ng aking kama.

"Salamat.", sabi ko at dahan-dahang bumangon.

She rolled her eyes. "Don't thank me. I am not doing this for you. I am doing this for myself.", she whines. Umupo ulit siya sa monoblock . "I'm the one who brought you here.", aniya at nag-iwas ng tingin.

Sandali akong napatitig sa kanya. May konsensya parin pala talaga siya.

Naubos ko lahat ng pagkaing binili ni Tia. Siguro gutom lang talaga ako o kaya naman dalawa na kaming kumakain ngayon.

"Makakalabas ka na bukas."

Dumapo ang mga mata ko kay Tia. "Ikaw...di ka ba uuwi sa inyo?", pag-iiba ko. I really don't want to talk about it right now. Siguro don na lang ako mag-iisip ng susunod kong gagawin kapag nakabas na ako.

She averted her gaze away from me. "Uuwi din ako.", mahina niyang sabi. I sighed. I want to tell her that it's fine for her to leave. Truthfully, I don't want her here. I am not immune by Tia's presence. Hindi naman kasi kami close. Hindi naman kami naging close.

I cleared my throat. "K-kung gusto mong umuwi ayos lang. Okay lang naman ako rito, e. Lalabas na naman din ako bukas."

Marahas siyang bumaling sa akin pabalik. "You don't get to tell me what to do, Andrea. I'm here because I want to. At kung feeling mo ay nandito ako dahil nag-aalala ako sayo pwes nagkakamali ka! I'm here because I want to see you leaving."

I gasped from her sudden outburst. Napahawak ako ng mahigpit sa kumot. Akala ko ay nandito siya dahil nakokonsensya siya. Yun pala ay gusto lang niya talaga akong makitang umalis. I squeezed my eyes shut. She never changed.

"Tia....I—I don't think I can't do it—"

"So you'll stay?! You'll stay, huh?", then sinundan niya iyon ng isang pagak na tawa. She even shook her head in disbelief.

"Di naman sa ganoon—"

"Anong hindi naman sa ganoon?! You really want to hurt my brother! I told you, once my twin knows this he will die in pain. Mahal na mahal ka ng kapatid ko, Andrea! He even went away because you told him so kahit alam niyang nasa paligid lang si Trivy. Ganon ka niya kamahal! And you...you don't love him.", mariin niyang pagkakabigkas.

Umiling ako."No. No. I love your brother. I love Yuo...", I whispered.

"But not as much you love Trivy. Am I right?"

And I can't find my tongue to speak.

"Mas mahal mo si Trivy kaysa sa kuya ko.", she stated.

We fell into silence for a minute. And I only need a minute to admit the fact that I love Yuo but I am in love with Trivy.

Napahinga ako ng malalim hindi dahil wala nang hangin sa aking baga kundi naramdaman ko ang paggaan ng aking pakiramdam. Admitting and accepting the truth is really the remedy for all. But it doesn't mean that the pain will go away instantly. You'll just have to get use of the truth first before it will go for good. And I only accepted the truth just now. I clutched my chest. Alam kong may sakit pa akong madadaanan. I just hope I could endure it.

"Does it ever occur to you that I am in love with Trivy, Andrea?", biglang basag ni Tia sa katahimikan naming dalawa. "Does it occur to you that of all the people, I am the one who is hurting the most? I am in love with Trivy since then. I've been in love with him but fuck! He's been in love with you kahit nandyan naman si kuya na minamahal ka! Minamahal ka niya kahit may nagmamahal na naman sayo!", then her voice broke. Her tears fell. Big drops of tears. I never pictured Tia like this. I have always seen her as the pathetic, bitchy yet strong girl. I have never imagined her crying, especially in front of me.

"Maayos naman kaming tatlo nong wala ka pa, e. Bakit lumitaw ka pa sa buhay naming tatlo? Why did my brother fell in love with you and brought you into our lives? Kasi sa pagdating mo and siya namang paglaho ko. I faded on the background the moment you came into the picture. You...you stole my brother from me. You stole...Trivy from me.", then she slowly fell on the floor. Tia cupped her mouth and sobbed quietly while I'm on the bed staring down at her...processing every word she said. And when everything sinks in...I came up with my decision.

Dahan-dahan akong humig. I covered my body with sheets and stared at the ceiling thinking that if everything starts with me then it will end with me.

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Sorry sa sobrang late na update. May naghintay ba nito? Huhu sorry po po po

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