I'm tired...I'm feeling too much pressure...it's too much...but I can handle it. I say to myself but I can't. It's a lot. I try to do everything but I can't I try to make everyone happy but it's seem so hard. I mean everyone is happy except me. I think I'm trying too much. I'm trying to be this confident girl I try to smile everyday but inside I'm slowly dying. Nobody knows what I'm going through and I decided to tell anyone who wants to know. Federica my best friend has a lot of problems but I support her, her problems are mine but now it's too much don't get me wrong I love helping her, but now I'm tired her pain is my pain and that the reason I'm trying to stay back a little bit...but I cant... because she needs me in her life. She is so nice and people walk over her that's the reason she needs me. I'm the person that completes her life...but sometimes I feel like im not good enough for her...or maybe too good... i don't know. I feel like she realise too much on me, she doesn't have a mom and I'm kind of her mother I help her decide what to wear, what to say to people, how to react. She is the friend that I don't want to lose. I do everything to keep her in my life... but now I'm just tired I have problems too. Well not so big like hers and I get her why she acts like that. Sometimes I feel like I'm not good enough for my friend, I'm scared that they don't like me, I'm scared that they will leave me and I will end up alone...welcome to my life <3
